04s65 quintet!

2007-02-09T19:50:00.000+08:00

my my..here i m again.=)

exercise voyager juz ended n it was a rather gd experience for me lar...shldnt talk much bout this here..cos later get caught n decomissioned..heh..n not everyone is interested...

everyone shld go read sams blog lar..tink its quite interesting..well..was quite thought provoking lar...=)..ur surroundings do change how u look at tings.how u grow up..they can even change ur taste..but ultimately its not solely the surroundings that change u..u change urself lar..u r e one hu gave the green light for urself to b changed..u urself pretty much control ur everyting (sounds a bit idiotic=)..

like for example e one you love breaks ur heart..you can choose to be sad or juz move on..its true that wadever memories you have (surroundings) can make you sad..but ultimately you still have to move on..these memories dont change..but u do..how u look at tings r different now n its this time when u look at tings in a diff light that change how u feel..happy or sad is determined by u ultimately n ur surroundings only makes the choice diff..=)

another pt is about spending time together..well..i dont really agree that hanging out together more means that u will adapt better to each other n finally get together..can means can..cannot means cannot..cannot force cannot to become can..in other words..some tings r juz meant to b...its like no matter how hard u try..sum relationships juz cannot work out..if u put 2 ppl hu hate each other to e core together..they will juz continue to love hating each other..no way will they try to accomodate n love each other..

e reason y ppl r willing to 'try tings out' is because they feel that their relationship is sth that may seem possible..n love contains more than juz liking..eventually they haf to learn to tolerate each other..be there for each other..look out for each other..so by taking the first step to hang out more frequently w each other n finding out more about each other means that both r interested in making this possible if it ever becomes possible..it doesnt mean that

A likes B and B likes A + Spend hell lot of time together = Happily ever after

its more like

A likes B and B likes A + hell lot of more tings = Happily ever after

love is juz so complicated..=)

many tings i dun understand..
y r ppl so secretive bout it?is it really that shameful to haf a gf/bf?shy?
y do so many promises break?i know humans r liars..but then a bit overboard lar..=)
y make promises that ppl cannot hold?
love is blind..but y is it so blind that ppl muz fall into the holes so many times?
y is it that nice ppl ppl dun like not nice ppl ppl like?

haha...well...if ppl r wondering y i m asking all this..cos i really v curious..n e ppl around me all kenna this kinda tings lar...=)

i haf gotten over my part n found my answers..even though i still tink there r no answers to everyting..=)..its juz human..

noting happened to me..but on a side note: parents r gd..b nice to them..=)

we always take our parents for granted..mayb only me..but many times they try to b nice n ask where haf u been..haf u eaten..r u hungry..but we tend to ignore them or even say they r naggy or juz give a v 'i m not interested' ans..we always treat our frens, b it bf or gf or good frens, better than we treat our parents..y?=)..now that we r a lil more independent our parents wun b there to nag at us..is that really gd?or is it better for sumone hu is more elderly to b there to guide us along n for us to fall back on?wad if our parents r suddenly taken away fr us?wads gonna happen to U n ME..will u b lost?will u b sad?or will u act normal n carry on living e way u r living..how bout ur allowance?n sch fees?n ur parents cannot b there to pester you to do spring cleaning..u haf to pester ur siblings to do so..

piece of advice to me n everyone else: dun live to regret. =)

2007-02-09T01:27:00.000+08:00

hmm...im back! but this time, i just wana talk about a really really good friend of mine called KAREN LIM MEI XIAN. she'll be leaving for australia on the second day of cny, so this post is dedicated to her:))))hope she gets to read it.

Anyhow, let me acquaint you guys to kren, my seat pal in mg..she's the bestest friend anyone can ask for..though she's always busy coz she's just too popular with all her friends. oh but i was really lucky coz i got to sit next to her for like one sem in sec 3..i think..or is it sec 4..haha i dont remember..both of us derived joy from insulting each other constantly and vandalising each other's textbooks with retarded comments like 'flower power' and drawing flowers all over..haha such a crazy girl thing..but yeah..

OMG in j2 or something, on my birthday, this moron sent me 10 over msgs saying HAPPY BIRTHDAY..and the last one says,"i bet you think you're damn popular now". haha that really really cracked me up..and stupid, she instigated other pple to do that too:P

then there was physics lesson in sec 3 where i had this crazy old man as our teacher called mr lim..and both of us are always doing everything else but physics..haha then i started this thing when every time the bell rings (which marked the end of class) ill always raise my hand as if i had a question and say something like, "mr lim, bell ring." and kren will be the one who instigates me to do such thing..or not..maybe i was the one who's just a bit warped..hee

and everytime one of us was pmsing, the other could jsut tell..and thats what really really special about our friendship. we just know how the other is feeling without having to express our emotions explicitly..

and for your information, i think kren's like the richest friend i know. but dont go rob her k. she prolly didnt know this but i sorta envied her for having the perfect life.. like having such a close-knit family with a huge and beautiful house.. and the best thing is she doesnt flaunt and make you feel anything less than who you really are. plus she's like smart and sweet and pretty...like what more can you ask for in a girl man..

I still remember there was one year she bought this slice of black forest cake for me for my birthday and practically forced me to eat it..haha and i must really apologise to her coz that time i was complaining and i refused to eat much of that cake coz i was too full from the breakfast i ate at home..i think that's like the first time anyone (other than my family) bought me a cake on my birthday. i was really really touched..thanksss pal.

ok and here are some words which are too mushy for me to say to you personally and ill probably just cry when i say it to you when i send you off..so im just gonna pen it down here..

hey girl,

you've been a really really great pal for like the last five years..now that you're leaving for like six years to be a doctor, im so gonna miss all the intellectual verbal fights i have with you and rouhui. the times we meet up with small jo and evil zar and sometimes quiet nic. the fantastic group of six and occasionally with number seven. the time you came to my hall and talked to rouhui's raymond online. ganging up and teasing rouhui. the birthdays when you gave me flowers. sitting in your audi a4 and watch you drive with green tea in the cup holder and listening to cool music at the same time. and most importantly, the times we just look at each other with the funny looks and just knowing what evil thoughts the other has in mind. (btw thats how i became so expressive with all my great facial expressions.haha)

it has been my greatest pleasure knowing you and having you as a friend. stay good and if i have the time and money, ill visit you in melbourne one day k:) Do continue to be a blessing to those around you and may you always shine in your own unique way.

thanks kren. take care kren.

here's a picture of me and my friendssss..and kren's the one the right..hee:)

rou me sarah and KRENNN

2007-02-02T23:08:00.000+08:00

i am super pissed with BLOGGER.COM

i hope the administrators are reading this.

i was supposedly "one of those lucky ones" who have been given the chance to switch my blog to the NEW BLOGGER system.. linked with my gmail..

however.. after i switched.. i couldn't see this group blog anymore..

so i got one of my team administrators to add me back again..

THEN I COULDN'T JOIN AT ALL. IT APPEARS THAT MY ACCOUNT DOESN'T EVEN EXIST.

so i figure that you guys lost my account during the switch.

and now i just created a new account. crazy.
fine.

please do something guys. you're supposedly the biggest blogging companies around.

disappointed.

2007-01-27T23:40:00.000+08:00

today was such a funny day. yet a sick day.

sentosa was not the usual fun experience..
well, partly cos it was raining..
partly cos OC called for all the DCs to return to camp for an urgent meeting... when we were less than 100m away from the camp gate.. in our civi attire..
so i only reached sentosa at around 3pm plus..

BUT

the most disgusting thing is that i got to see our very own singapore's version of "IRON LADIES".

these guys can play decent beach volleyball, 3 touches and spike, can save and all.
they look pretty normal, pretty well-built, tanned..

but you could tell they were gay.
one guy actually wore fbt-like nike shorts.
one guy was fat and fair, with ugly hair. probably in his early 30s, in a tight white singlet.
the other 2 looked pretty normal.

BUT THEIR ACTIONS REVEALED THEIR TRUE SEXUAL INCLINATIONS.

they were making weird noises with every hit, slapping each others butts after each point,
giving each other the weird "i know what you did last nite" smile..
doing the gay shits.
argh.
i can't really discribe. it's just sick.

bmcg hghkcg

2007-01-26T23:38:00.000+08:00

fucks. i have spent nearly one month of my pay within 2 weekends. altho this month was 868 bucks pay but still i know i shdnt spend so much. but when did you heed all your shd haves

on 14th jan Sunday i bought one LevisJeans ($169.50) one FuturaLaboratariesTee ($79) one Obey Tee ($45) one LevisBoxers ($16.50) and one fauzsnakeskinorganizer ($24.55). Total 300 plus bucks alr.

on 2oth jan saturday i bought one VansFauxCrocSkinHalfCab ($149) one Sneakerfreakermagazine ($13) one earstud ($4) and one small bottle of JohnnieWalker ($14). Total $180.

that makes it total of slightly above 500 bucks. and i still haven gotten myself one bermudas and one more pair of boxers, which will roughly cost me abt another 70 bucks more. and next month my fren coming back from ROC, getting me a big bottle of JackDaniels from DFS. which will cost me another about 40 bucks.

fucks. next month must save like gay alr. must eat only cookhouse food and not canteen food. must save every cent of redpacket earnings. otherwise i will feel damn guilty abt this retail therapy chionging hahahaaaa

2007-01-26T13:47:00.000+08:00

wow time sure flies man..the way you guys put it..its been three years already huh..feel damn old nowwww..

was talking to chin hoe that day and he was telling me that everyone has changed, be it in the slightest way or dramatically. hah, wont tell you what he said about the rest, but he told me that i've become less shy after entering uni..which..i cant decide if its a compliment or an insult..hah but i think its geared towards a compliment?

But anyways, i dont really think i changed much..its quite hard to change when you're already so old and your personality has been kinda moulded in you already right..yeah so my point is, im still the same ol' kiet mei:) haha the nice, cheery kiet mei.*pukes* but if i do change in such a drastic way that you guys are like ultimately disgusted, do let me know k? So at least i can be aware of it and change or something.

haha, ok which comes to the point of my post here, DOES ANYONE WANA GO FOR NTU CHOIR CONCERT ON 9TH MARCH, 8PM AT VICTORIA CONCERT HALL???? i have to sell 15 tickets...or..does anyone wana volunteer for ushering? i need 3 guys, or gals..let me know can???thankssss:)

2007-01-25T22:54:00.000+08:00

haha
well, i would have forgotten that MR DAWES if samuel didn't bring him up. haha. all those tutorials which we spent in the library and told him that we got stomachaches. damn stupid. but i guess we and he couldn't care less. haha.
but he was the tutor who gave me a 39 for my essay on "Has Commercialism ruined Sports?"
haha

anyway, today i had the most interesting cab ride ever.
i boarded the cab just outside hendon.
then the taxi driver started to ask me if i'm serving my NS and all...
then we talked abit about the training and stuff..
then the moment he knew that i was a commando officer, he was like all due respect and all.

here are just some sentences he said,

"you must be quite a someone to be able to get where you are."

"if you were my son, i would be very proud of you and tell all my friends about you."

"you're not just an officer, but of the elite unit."

"the way you put it, you're very humble."

haha. my goodness. i was in total shock. felt like a god. haha

but anyway, that's not really my point.
i just wanna say that actually, commando officers, the training that we go through is not that tough after all.
i mean, you all know me, i'm like a lazy fat bum who enjoys the food and aircon during bowling training.
if i can go through all those, i'm pretty sure many of you all out there can too. :)

so i said that actually, it's just a matter of having the right opportunities..
and that's when he said that i'm being humble. haha

i'm a god. :D

yij6jnio6ior6

2007-01-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

hahaa omg just read this all of this blog's archived entries from september 2004 to june 2005.... stopped there cos it was all yj's entire string barrage of emo entries abt sad songs and stuff...hahhaaa....

quite nice leh tho it took up a lot of my valuable free time hahahaha remember how we argued abt whether mugging is worth it? recall how we kbed about how our 2005 stj (i organise one summore) was supposedly lousier than 2004's? all the posts abt arranging for sushibuffet/secretrecipe/dimsumbuffet/etc. ? rmb all the dynasty warriors and dragonball sessions at my house? hahahahaa

i have to say we have come a very long way, even tho its just only slightly more than 3 years since we have known each other. gone through so much, grown up so much. in some areas we have matured and learnt lots, in some we have returned back to square one tho some of it resulted in wounds and scars. we must surely confirm continue blogging here no matter what. ahahahaa imagine you look at the archive area to the blog's right and its one freaking super long list of months and years. imagine you see a April 2021 there. and the amount of recollection and reminiscing you can have hahaa.

and reading all those just now made me remember a super important thing that i otherwise would have forgotten.

we used to have a fucking teacher called mr. dowes HAHHAHAHAHAHAAA

2007-01-21T11:32:00.000+08:00

i dunno how to start this entry.
last nite i was club hopping, thanks to zhiyin. haha.
was a damn boring nite.
BLEAH.

had to rush to St James because zhiyin's friend was selling tickets, and after 9.30pm the price would be doubled.
got our "chop" den down the free drink and left for zouk to see the "back to school" party.
was boring. -_- except for the fact that i got to talk to jingmin for like 30 secs before her horde of fans came over. haha.

then after hanging around there for a while, before i got disgusted by all the shitty RnB perverts yet again, we headed back to St James to meet my vjc friend and check out the NUS party..

The place is pretty average.. but the party and the crowd and the music was pretty average too.
so we went to 'station kitchen', a place in the whole St James Power Station building.
they had prata, bbq, and ding tai feng.
so me and zhiyin shared a bowl of veg dumpling and chili wanton.
after that, we tried to get back into the mood.. but nah.. boring.. dunno why.

SO, we headed back to zouk to find marcus, who was obviously late and we din get to see him just now.. but by the time we got back.. lide and mong seng was like knocked out. oh wells. that's why i always say, "watch your limits".

after another half hour, we decided that it was best to head home.

got home before 2. early.

one thing very funny about zouk was that all the guys were like predators..
at first it was jialing, jingmin, lide, zhiyin and i dancing in a group together.. then i realised that there were like another 5 - 10 guys outside the group, waiting to chiong jialing and jingmin.. so me and zhiyin decided that it was best for us to leave. haha. the moment the opening came, wah, all just chiong in. damn scary sia.

*this is a new addition to my entry*
last nite, when we stepped out of Zouk to go home.. or rather.. even at St James..
we saw so many girls all wasted and drunk.. puking at the side of the road..
then got like guys holding them and all.. nearly pawing them..
sigh. what a sight.
i wonder if those guys are like their friends or not.
in fact, even friends might take advantage of them.
i think i'm disappointed in girls.
**

guys are just all bastards. haha.
girls please take care.

i swear off clubbing.

except on wednesday mambo nights. :)

i rest my case.

2007-01-18T16:01:00.000+08:00

guess who's back.. back again..
hmm, have i used that line before?

well, it seems that i'm enjoying blogging again. this narcisstic exhibition, thinking that the whole world wants to know what happened to me. haha.

thinking back, it has been about 3 years since we've known each other.. all those schooling days. already one year since we've graduated. pretty sure this friendship will last quite a while. haha.
hope we can still meet up regularly in future. especially when everybody starts falling in love like celestine.. :D not being mean or what, but i'm really happy for her! you don't have to hide it! haha.
well, thinking about the schooling days, today i was at J8.. saw so many Hongyi s and Celestine s (RAFFLESIANS), just that they were no where near as good looking as HY and Celest.
MY GOODNESS. i had no idea that weekdays, J8 is like swarmed by so many of them.. plus all the other students. i felt quite old.
come march, i will no longer be a teenager. how sad. forced to grow up by time. wonder how true it is that army will make one mature. i think it's what the army does to your life which in turns force u to grow up. and not the army's efforts. haha.
what we do in the army doesn't really make one mature, unless of course, you're an officer or what, den you'll have to take the responsibility of your men, then you'll grow in the experience. or else, the things we train does nothing to make one mature.
but i've seen so many relationships turn sour, and all the guys really do grow up after that. they see things in a very different light and seem to be able to handle things much better after that. surprise.
only ten more months to go. i'm counting down each day. HAHA. the last time i remembered, it was 319 days left. but i forgot when i counted. :)

today was quite an eventful day.
i had the discipline to wake up at 9 and make my way down to the pool to get some nice sun.
din really swim much. my body's aching from all that training. probably not used to the intensity yet. need a few more days/weeks.
spent about 45 mins at the pool, really tired. haha. especially the 1km walk to the pool, i already tired le. haha. my legs are super tight now... but i wanna burn those thighs away sia..

anyway, life's really funny.. many times, when u want something, u can't find it. when you don't want it, it just pops up. surprising how i find it amusing now. this morning i was still rather pissed when i couldn't find my speedos.. had to wear some cheapo trunks i bought in bangkok on my last trip there. then when i reached home just now, POOF! there they are. just lying under some clothes on the rack. damn.

but today was really damn crappy. after the swim. i managed to make it to Macs in time for my Hotcakes with Sausage Meal + one additional Hashbrown breakfast. damn shiok sia. haha. was trying to calculate whether i undone all my training, using the nutrition table that comes on the paper on the tray. but heck.

after that, i was supposed to take 410 to thomson plaza to return my long overdue VCDs from VideoEzy. but alas, i was too tired. slept all the way back to Bishan Interchange. haha. Then just nice, 410 came again, i board again, this time forcing my eyes open. haha.
returned the vcds, did some shopping. SHUCKS. but then i know that those were essentials, i don't feel so bad.
looked for some socks that i can wear to run in, and a pair of goggles. my eyes were blood red after the swim this morning. better get some goggles fast. which i eventually did. the cheapest ones. haha.
went to sembawang, asking if they have that old old old really old Zouk Mambo Jambo cd.. from what i know, it was discontinued in 2004, and my brother said that the cd was first published in 2000. haha. it's freaking 7 years old. but i guess mambo never dies.
in fact, today's new paper had a Madam Wong ad! they're back! i hope with the same ol' good music. haha. tonite's their launch party, but i've got work to do in camp. and my brother might be doing the reconnaissance for me tonite. haha.

i skipped lunch as i had a heavy breakfast at about 11. took a cab down to ICA (used to be Singapore Immigration Registrar). now i dunno what ICA stands for. someone enlighten please.
went to renew my passport, and at the same time, update my photo. that photo was like in primary school. i have not changed much. haha
anyway, how long is a passport valid? apparently, the lady help me renew till the tenth year since the issue of the passport. i think one passport is only valid for like ten years is it?
meaning like the book is valid for only ten years max?
dunno, but i heard that there's a new passport coming out again. maybe they're phasing out this old book...

hmm, after that. i'm home. haha. typing this entry and i'm probably gonna end here for now. if i've got more to write. i'll be back again. haha.

2007-01-17T23:40:00.000+08:00

i am still rather pissed about my hair, but i have learnt to accept life.
they always say that life is 10% about what happens and 90% about how you react.
i guess that's true.
the hair may be ugly, but it's short and it has served me well over the past 2 days as i started my own physical training. hopefully i can attain that oh-so-desired abs and defined figure. of cos, not to forget that luscious chocolatey tan. haha. i might just bite myself while munching on a cadbury. :P most probably report back to hendon tml afternoon to do some training and project.

hmm, not in a good mood today. wonder why.
not even in the mood for my current craze - mambo.
the other nite was still quite hyped up about clubbing with my brother again. but today both of us are like half-hearted.
feel bad about pangseh-ing melvin and sng (chin hoe would know them.) not so much about sean, because he's the type that would scold me and says that i'm not a friend just cause i don't wanna go with them tonite. so i guess he loses friends every now and then.
sigh.
in a shitty mood.

tml shall go for a morning swim. hopefully the sun will be out and i will be awake.

my right eye is still slightly swollen. no one knew about it but now no one cares anyway. ha...ha...

looking at my trainees, they are like all older than me, poly batch. but they somehow respect me and treat me like someone who can look after them. amazing what the rank does for me. :)
but i've been thru more. i guess.

anyway, crap. nites all.

2007-01-13T18:52:00.000+08:00

i am probably the angriest 19-yr old in the world now.
DAMN IT.
i am like super pissed. i wanna use the F-word to express the extent and degree of anger i have but i decided that i am going to be as civilised as i can be.
fuck it.
i am like super fucking pissed with the stupid fucking brainless barber at bishan.

the first thing he asked me when i entered was "recruit ah? this type of hair can meh? no 7 extras ah?"
i told him "of cos can lar. officers where got 7 extras one?"

then the idiot asked, "so how u wanna cut?"

"just trim and thin the top, side and back cut short, fringe leave it."

end up the bugger din even fucking pick up the special scisscors to thin/layer my hair.. i knew something was wrong. but it was too fucking late. SNIP SNIP SNIP.
i controlled myself, din wanna shout in his faeces face.

den he just couldn't stop cutting...

and he still had the cheek to ask me.. "how? later going back tekong ah?"
and when i was leaving, he ask me "still too long ah?"

then i couldn't take it. i just told him "too fucking short."
opened the door and left.

then i had no choice but to make a trip to my usual barber and get him to cut my hair again.. because the first barber not only cut it too short.. the length was like uneven all over with like holes. he should just go practice cutting his dick hair.

and so i end up with a super short "mohawk-wannabe" hairstyle, looking worse than a recruit.
what to do when there are stupid shits of some race screwing up people's life.
thank goodness hair grows back.

i think all barbers should have a certain level of qualification. not just education, but also be licensed to cut people's hair. that's Quality Control that the Sg Govt should implement.
in order to be a gracious society, we all have to look good and that's not possible when there are such people around.

damn it.

moving on to my next topic.

clubbing.

well, this argument has both sides.
i had quite a time on wednesday nite when my OC organised an outing to MoS for all the commanders. but we decided to head to Zouk because it was Mambo Nite.

Mambo rocked as usual. Since the last time i enjoyed mambo at Madame Wong with my brother 2 years back. Mambo was super cool. all the regulars were dancing the same moves to the songs. damn nice and funny, but cool. :)
met some friends, MEILIN, yingyi, jeremy and i can't really remember who.
got this friend in the army, damn act seh, he knows he can't drink, but still thinks that he's damn cool, den always drink abit, get high, get abit drunk den kb ppl like crazy. and he's the type of bastard that i am going to talk abt later. but for now, the point is that, just cos he can't drink, he tries and undermine me, say what i will definitely knock out in half an hour, end up i realise that my alcohol threshold has just improved tremendously yet again. but the music was HIGH.

anyway, moving on to those bastards. as some of you all might know, Phuture and Zouk are like linked.. and Phuture was like SUPER CROWDED. u can't really move in there. and there were like so many bastards who were pushing their way, walking with their "sausages" leading the way, trying to grind every other girl on the dance floor. FUCKING SICK AND GROSS.
it's these people that make R n B clubbing damn sleazy. i hate it.
BAH.
but just too bad, there are still those sluts out there who want guys to grope them all over. sigh
the sad fact of this society.

looks like "gracious society" seems so far away.

especially when people piss me off so badly, i can't be my usual gracious self.

tintitit

2007-01-12T20:45:00.000+08:00

teresa of campus superstar is fucking chio. now shes acting which is fucking good hahaha

zhou xun is also fucking chio. shes already long been acting which is long been fucking good also hahahahaa

its time to start shopping for cny clothes and throw money around and act as if sergeant pay is really a lot and become so broke and empty at the end of it all which is also rather fucking good hahahahha

i dunno wad am i typing here maybe cos im rather tired didnt sleep a single hour yesterday night cos need to do duty which was also fucking good haahahahaa

2007-01-07T09:49:00.000+08:00

hey guys...finally summex is over...=)

the past few days were really torturous..hmm...i m so glad to b home..hmm..for those who dunno..summex juz means summary exercise n thruout this exercise there were so many unpredictables...they were like playing w ur mind...making u to expect the unexpected...n after everything i was really v v tired....both mentally n physically..din slpt much for the past 3 days...mayb 2 hrs?hmm...but i m juz glad everything is over...guess its quite true when they say if it doesnt kill u it juz makes u stronger..hmm...=)...cannot wait to get e khaki on thursday...

well...the gathering w ms lim was great...couldnt b better..hmm...its rare to actually c most of the class around together...esp last time got the clique ting...hmm...its like we seldom get to talk or mingle w the lit ppl..well...firstly because of the time table..n because we werent on gd terms w them..hmm..mayb not we but me..=)...but then it was gd to talk to everyone again..hmm...then we went to stayover at anns place..hmm...well its quite a weird combi...cos got jian ting me hongyi ann n pan pan...hmm...quite weird combi..ppl fr all walks of life...but then tings were better than i expected?yeah...played cards n talk cock..hmm...until i slpt n snored..heh...=)...who doesnt snore rite...hmm...it felt like the old days...the chalet during 1st 3 mths...hmm...it was fun...=)

so much has happened for the past yr..hmm...mayb not so much...but so significant..hmm...life still goes on i guess..=)...bmt was gd lar..but ocs was better..made many new frens n i was thankful for them..hmm...if not for them i wldnt haf survived ocs...hmm..then went guards n made a few more frens...n they were the ones hu were standing w me during sumex n casavec...its gd to haf ppl whom u can fall back on...=)...

hmm..hope the new yr will b great for everyone out there...well...if it doesn kill u..it juz makes u stronger..take care ppl...

2007-01-06T22:51:00.000+08:00

March of the Infantry Pride - 32 km.
Commando Graduation Endurance March - 72km

crazy.

i spent the whole of yesterday to this morning carrying a load of about 15+ kg walking for 22 hours, covering a total distance of 72km.

starting off from pasir ris, we walked through pasir ris camp, to changi beach, changi ferry terminal, changi coastal road (the 10km long walk next to changi airport runway), down to east coast park, all the way to Fort Rd, stretching a total distance of 36.5km.. den of course, making our way back..

the march was not easy. we took many precautions to prevent or at least minimise the damage. haha
like wearing tights, applying vaseline, blister plasters etc.. for me, somehow, perhaps taking some effort to walk properly and not drag my feet so maybe the vaseline and tights worked very effectively..

but the walk was really long.. this time, east coast park was quite sad.. no eye candies for us.. so the supposedly best part.. was damn draggy and long..

anyway, the whole walk was damn drag-ass. very boring and torturous.. and it became harder when some of the guys were feeling unwell, so we just helped each other, hump their load and carried on.. but fortunately.. thanks to the great planning.. we catered for some good refreshments along the way, at some rest points..

the walk was tought and ardous.. but at the end, it felt really pretty good.. like a certain sense of achievement.. because 22 hours is really much harder than what most people would think..
usual planning norms is 4km/hr.. and by right 72km should take 18hrs only.. let's say we add another 2 hrs for lunch and dinner break only adds up to 20hrs..
but when you're walking it.. 22 hrs seems much shorter than you think. it's long.. but when you're dying and still pushing your bodies limits to reach the timing.. suddenly 22 hrs seems very short...

i'm not exactly pissed, but i'm very puzzled..
why everytime we're on our route marches, on our trainings.. we'll get some people who will keep shouting "ORD LOH!" at us..
so what if you're out of the army, do you really feel that proud of yourself? what did you do in that two years?
we're doing our part for the country, i'm not saying that i'm really that willing.. but since you have to do it, why not do it to the best of your ability?
not like we're damn bothered by it, but all these people are actually making themselves look damn stupid and childish. in fact, i'm pretty proud to say that i'm a commando.. get to do airbone, heli-rappeling, fast roping etc.. certain kind of special ops that probably only a handful of people will get to experience..

anyway, my body is dying. and this entry is pretty crappy.
but 72 is such a definite yet infinite number. haha.

the march felt endless..
and boring
and draggy

just like this entry.

tyknit

2007-01-06T01:44:00.000+08:00

OMG i just watched this damn damn nice korean movie called Blue on Channel U.... damn nice la..... rather sad.... hahaaa its was too zai so i had to blog abt it immediately hahahaa

2007-01-03T12:26:00.000+08:00

hey all! happy new yearrrr:)))

hmm another year has gone by just like that and i must say i view the new year with mixed feelings, with fears of the unknown future and excitement to welcome the unknown (haha but who wouldnt right! stupid me) But i've got to say this, what a year 2006 had been for me. (everyone's been reviewing their 2006s in their blogs and it just gave me the urge to sum up my year that has just passed so quickly. and since i dont have my own personal blog, i shall do it here:P)

i must say this is the first time i look back on my year, coz im the sort who tries not to dwell on the past, be it happy or sad, oh but this is a bit different from reminscing yeah. so for me, once something is over, it's over, there's no point in going back to think about it, especially if it was a really bad experience.(u guys should know this coz i always hated discussing exam papers coz of this reason) So i guess, the fact that im looking back at my year is most probably coz the past year had been good for me? haha i dont know. you can read on and decipher for yourself and even for me:)

the first part of the year was spent nua-ing at home and rushing for scholarship applications and studying for SATs and stuff. I was also chiong-ing my uni applications, especially overseas unis. I was writing personal statements, essays, short essays like nobody's business. at that time, i really hoped i could make it overseas, sorta to fufil my sister's dream coz she always wanted to go overseas to study. and since, my grades were more optimistic, i tried hard to get my butt overseas.

initially, i didnt really intend to study overseas, but all that talk from my sister that an overseas education will definitely be an added advantage as compared to those studying locally...blah blah..tempted me a whole lot. And since, my dad cant finance me in an overseas education, i had to apply for the scholarships that do sponsor overseas education. and needless to say, those are highly sought-after. and i obviously didnt make it for any of those. the only scholarship that i managed to get was a local teaching scholarship, which a lot of other pple got too. So imagine how special i felt..haha

then came my teaching stint at raffles girls' primary school which started immediately after chinese new year. celest was the one who recommended me to this job and i must say a big thank you to her!:) coz this was seriously the highest-paying job compared to a lot of my other friends doing waitressing and sales. and it allowed time to pass a whole lot faster, fortunately or unfortunately for that matter. There, i was the form teacher of a primary 3 class. had a love-hate relationship with them coz i was bullied non-stop by them, well, mainly because i dont scold. then there were the strepsils-eating days coz i had to scream and shout everyday to a class of 30-odd crazy girls. But ultimately, i saw this class through their mid-year exams and they did me proud:)) My class did even better than others whose form teachers were way more experienced than i am (haha not that im bragging or anything..heh)
this teaching experience taught me lots of stuff such as to be more assertive when the time calls for it and this was especially useful when i dealt with demanding parents. and not all kids are as innocent and naive as they look k!! looks are so deceiving:P and obviously talking to those parents was an art in itself..haha..coz sometimes these parents are so menacing, you've got to save yourself first man.

Well, teaching lasted roughly from feb all the way to july. and then during that, there was the release of A levels results, where the whole class met up again for the first time since we parted ways after our last paper. clique did well:) class wasnt that far off either. did okay personally. But i guess our class always had the potential to do a lot better than we did. Hee, but since that's over and everyone's getting to where they want to be, thats all that matters ultimately. oh and of course, the important thing was that we all had fun in jc, as in we managed to play hard and work hard at the same time. and this was something that i'd been grateful for, coz if not, my jc life would have been hell. Thanks guys:))

After that was, of course, local uni applications. I applied to accountancy at all three local unis. was accepted to all and that led to the lots of sleepless nights weighing the pros and cons of each uni. NUS was elimated easily without much thought coz it was like a four-year course and it wasnt a professional degree, just a normal biz-ad one. plus, it is new without much accreditation.
then there was SMU vs NTU. That really put me on the spot coz SMU offered me a double degree in business and accountancy. i was actually in the running for the SMU and LKC scholarship in SMU, so if i had gotten the scholarship, i would have gone there. but of course, being lousy, i didnt get it and i chose NTU in the end coz it was a three-year course and it was more recognised. and, in a way, im glad for the way things turned out for me, like no regrets la..coz yeah things have been going good for me in NTU so far. well not in terms of studies but other stuff, like choir and hall and friends:)

But, one thing i must say about uni is that everything is so fleeting, it just passes you by without you knowing. and for me right, its really hard to make good friends in uni, coz the time u spend with the people there is like so short. course-mates change every semester and i seldom talk to my hall-mates cept during the semester when i get to see them more often. so its just hi-bye stuff for me. uni is a whole new experience for me and so far, i hope i can say that im surviving through it fine. argh im so afraid to jinx it. but what will come has to come right..so what the heck

Then there's choir!! haha after one big round, im back to choir again. guess my passion for singing never ceases? haha cockzz..but yeah..i auditioned for choir and i got in. then i ran for the position of biz mag (business manager) for which three other pple were running too. but i got it!!!:) arent u all proud of me?:P but initially, i wanted to give up my post, coz i didnt really feel like i was a part of the choir as many of the members are foreigners and they are kinda bonded amongst themselves already. plus, i dont speak their language so it made it even harder for me. BUT, haha thank goodness for the choir camp this hols, where i made lots of friends! and who can forget carolings..heh..so yeah..now im starting to like it more:) so luckily i didnt quit choir just coz of a moment of weakness..

well, i guess thats my year:) haha im so self-centred right, talked about myself for the whole post.hehe..but all in all, im really glad that i will always have a bunch of good friends to fall back on should anything happen. and im really really really grateful for that. haha, so if u have made it to this paragraph, it shows that my life and my writing skills are interesting enough to last you all the way here.haahahaha..okok..have a really great year ahead everyone:)

cheers!

happy new year!!!

2007-01-02T01:54:00.000+08:00

happy new year!!! haha... i'm the 1st to blog dis yr rite... was actually halfway typing a post late last nite, or rather, early in the morn of 1st jan 07... but i ko-ed in front of my laptop b4 publishing the post... haha... well, juz wanna say it was fun meeting up with the clique pple to go nydc & party world yest... i wasnt quite in the k-ing mood coz i hvent been listening to much songs lately... haha... my singing was even more disastrous than usual lor... but well, it was really fun watching u guyz sing... sam was as entertaining as ever, hy as delightfully crappy as ever, chin as focused as ever, kiet as pro as ever! haha... oh yah, & de freebies at party world were quite interesting... haha... brought along the colourful mini "light sabre" to esplanade for the countdown... but when i took it out of my bag, no batt!!! arghh...the lousy batteries... no power one lor... but anw, the fireworks display at esplanade was pretty cool! haha... some of the firework designs were really captivating & beautiful... it was really packed at city hall, the whole area around esplanade was flooded with people, & we had difficulties moving about... my view wasnt really gd, but the fireworks realeased at midnite were much higher than those released at intervals from ard 11+pm, so we still had a clear view of the bigger fireworks...

today's class gathering with miss lim at holland v was quite a success i must say! the turnout was pretty gd... & i had a fun time chatting with everyone... ok, maybe not everyone...but at least our side of the table had pretty interesting topics of discussion... haha... catching up with frenz over drinks is really enjoyable... hope we'll be able to do this again sometime... glad that miss lim actually bothered to make time to entertain us... for her to take time off her busy schedule to have a class gathering with us... wow... i'm touched... =)

alritez...to end off this post, juz wanna wish everyone a fabulous 2007 filled with lotza fun, joy & happiness... once sch reopens, it might be quite difficult for us to meet up again, but i'll still be looking forward to our next outing!!! =P

2006-12-31T01:52:00.000+08:00

hey people.
belated merry christmas.
advanced happy new year.
hope the new year brings all of you many reasons to celebrate and rejoice.

this entry is going out to all the NSFs, NS Men, Pre-Enlistees.
i'm sure all those who have gone through the army, or maybe even ocs, have done the 1.5km Standard Obstacle Course. those who have been through OCS also have gone through the SAFTI Endurance Obstacle Course, with a route of about 3.5km.

the 1.5km SOC is a 700m run, den 100m obstacle course finished with a 700m run. many people taking a time of about 7-9 mins.

imagine this. running it 6 times. and abit more.

that's what i did this morning.

ok, maybe not exactly.. haha

but i did a 10km SOC test.
passing time : 65 mins.

actually, it's not that hard.. haha but the achievement is so significant is cos i din put in effort for all the runs that in fact i failed the 5, 7, 9km SOC runs. haha. but i actually passed the 10km test..

2006-12-26T00:18:00.000+08:00

argh..i missed class outing for like the ten thousandth time! missing everyone:( im so so sorry guys. I really meant to go down to meet you all, but orchard was so packed i couldnt even make it to the train station. plus, the sealed off some parts of orchard so it was practically impossible to make it to the mrt station. so i got frustrated and took a bus home. which was ten times faster than if i were to take a train down to dhoby ghaut even though the distance would be twice as long.

Orchard road on christmas eve is insane..seriously. i wouldnt even have stepped into orchard if not for caroling. i had to rush down to ngee ann city for my performance and a route that would normally take 15 min, took 45 min! and i was squished with the smelly crowd for god knows how long. with all of singapore who decided all at the same time to spend christmas in orchard. i was so frustrated with people pushing me around like some thin person when im not, i started cursing and swearing aloud. argh

ok..i just wanted to rant about the crowdedness of orchard road on christmas eve..haha..now im done..so MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE

ityiir67

2006-12-21T22:34:00.000+08:00

hahahahaha im blogging here also with no specific topic in mind... just flaunting all the skills learnt form GP and Econs last time

last night watched this apparently fucking boring documentary IN CHINESE called Zai4 Shuo1 Chang2 Jiang1 on Channel U.... surprisingly it was rather interesting... haha... altho in general i do like to watch documentaries... all the stuff abt Taoist temples and architecture and how the architects were so ingenious to defy near-impossible terrain and build all the pro buildings...hahaha.... now im rather interested in all these stuff....hahahaha

and i have to say Paris Hilton is uber hot... hahaha b4 the documentary was A Simple Life: Till Death Do Us Part... hahaha she is seriously smoking hot hahahaha Nicole Richie is gan er.... big head big eyes small body like a cat liddat eeyer

and i also have to say Zhou Xun is uber cute... HAHAHHAHH after watching She4 Diao1 Ying1 Xiong2 Zhuan4 VCD i have to say she is damn pro at acting...get Jin1 Ma3 Jiang3 summore.... has deep and sexy voice too WOOOO shall go buy Ru2 Guo3 Ai4 VCD hahahhaa..... Gong Li has big boobs ZhangZiyi has no boobs but who cares abt boobs when you have zhou xun hahahahahaha

and yeah this sunday there is this dinner thing plus countdown thing.... but i dunno where they having both things... have to ask ngee poo... i hope its not at town area.... tho most likely it will.... hahahha.... town confirm will be flooded to the max la..maybe we can go someones house??

and yeah btw yj the shoes nt bad... tho nt my style...hahaha... but seriously 200 plus for a pair of shoes a bit chao.... unlike me just bought a pair of 2nd hand shoes at 220bucks HAHAHHAHHAAHA but then again i have yet to check out vivo city... deprived la... and i also have yet to check out many movies... like Curse of the Golden Flower... A Battle of Wits.... FLags of Our Fathers... and also the upcoming DeathNote2....

and oh yeahh i know its still fucking far away but can we go someone house for CNY? like those chiong Yuhangs house sessions... tho the 2005 session with the juniors was utterly gay....hahahahhha and maybe can go back HC for the celebrations... maybe can take a super early leave for 2007 hahahaa...

and oh yay Chin altho u go Guards and have to chiong around even after commissioning but still after GCC u will become a uber god of sandbags.... above all the rest of the OCS Gods.... tho not at the same level as the ultra uber God called Yongjun hahaha...

and oh ya btw i heard Mavis became Prom Queen...hahaha... rather unexpected... and Colin (the fucking tall guy from s64) was prom king.... hahahahaa.... i have to say our prom kias were better hahahaha

and ya kiet is gg to send us all xmas cards again... damn zai... heres a beearlyed thanks first k.... i tot of doing the exact same thing but sadly im not so pro and hardworking to bother finding out all the addresses and buying all the envelopes...hahahaa... instead i shall write everyone some pro testimonials on frenster kk???? hahahahahhaaa pls stay tuned fellow gugujiaos

2006-12-19T23:26:00.000+08:00

heyheyhey!!!

here to blog something..really have no idea on what to blog..have been really busy and i really wonder how everyone else is doing..so afraid that we will drift apart due to our lack of time together..but thank goodness for this blog..which i hope all of us are trying hard to keep alive..hee..

have been caroling a lot this december..so sorry i couldnt meet up with you guys this hols..i really wished i could..but im busiest over the weekends..and the people i deal with because of caroling just piss me off..well of course not all are demanding and unreasonable..but there is just this particular woman that is just..argh...not nice..and the worst thing is that im like the most unassertive person around..i mean as fierce as i am with my friends..im really not too good with being firm with strangers..plus, she's so big and fat..so im very scared that she'll sit on me when she gets mad..

anyways,congrats to the officers..who, well, became officers finally..wanted to be there to witness your proud moment, but..oh wait what was i doing..i was frigging caroling my ass off..argh..but that day i met samuel at city hall mrt i think..and he was on his way to meet army friends..and boy did he tell me some shocking news..but sigh..there will always be some things which i cant and wont understand..;)

haha..you probably can tell by now that i really have no idea what i wanted to blog on..so im just jumping from subject to subject..alright..i think i better end off..dont think you're having a good time reading this anyways..haha..

anyway, as the song goes, "tis the season to be jolly". Hope everyone is doing great..and for the people who do actually finish reading this post, can you send me your home address via sms? I hope i have time to send out christmas cards this year:)so please drop me an sms k, so that i can send you a christmas card this year again..yupp...thats all from me..take care peeps!

cheers!

2006-12-17T19:47:00.000+08:00

hmm, back again. haha
today quite happy.
i went shopping with my mum. something that i haven't done in ages..
and she's super nice yet again. haha.
we went vivo and shopped at "pull and bear".. and bought the nice tees that i saw the last times! haha
yay! damn nice and happy. haha

i am a pull and bear boy.

2006-12-12T00:35:00.000+08:00

yet another post. haha
today's the 2nd time i walked into vivo city. actually, you can say it's the first, cos the first time i only walked thru it to get to harbourfront mrt. haha

at first, i felt that vivo city failed to achieve the intended effect.
it's huge. it's damn big. it's TOO BIG!
it makes shoppers like me confused and lost. you don't know where to start shopping from! and it's so hard to orientate yourself inside!
it's like trying to fit orchard into one building, they have nearly everything! by the time you finish shopping, the season would probably have changed and the cycle starts again. haha
AND i saw so many nice stuff i felt even poorer, don't wanna buy any more stuff, don't wanna look anymore! so tempting..

but one shop that i would like to highlight would be "Pull and Bear"..
inside got a couple of nice stuff..
e.g, shoes, tees, polos, sweatshirts..
but all not cheap.. so hopefully, i'll get to buy something soon. haha. or my nice friends out there can buy me some stuff for christmas. *hint

kinda tired from all that shopping, i already forgot what i wanted to say anyway..
oh.. i decided that i won't buy anything from vivo first.. cos i haven't got to check out queensway shopping centre.. remember the last time i went shopping alone, i saw alot of nice stuff but i was broke.. and i guess it's so much more affordable than vivo.. haha.. brand isn't everything..

but i was truly fascinated by vivo.
shall visit it again. hopefully next time will be with my dearie when she's back. :)

2006-12-10T23:56:00.000+08:00

i feel a sense of guilt as i am typing this entry.. not only guilt.. but also happiness too, perhaps a very shallow sense of happiness, but still, a very expensive sense of happiness. the result of retail therapy. :)
i'm not too sure what the therapy is for, but i succumbed to the temptation once again.. perhaps like a certain kind of fetish for shoes. haha.
i just indulged in a pair of Onitsuka Tiger that costs $209 from Leftfoot Cine.. :)

been eyeing this shoe for quite a while.. and somehow.. i got it. haha. can't wait to wear them out someday. haha. hope to see you guys soon!
IN MY NEW SHOES!

going crazy.

2006-12-10T03:37:00.000+08:00

heys, it's nearly 4am now, and i'm damn tired.. but how can i possibly not blog about 63/06 commissioning parade? haha

today started off pretty well i guess, waking up at like 8 plus, den going for breakfast den book into camp at about 1055..
then, spent the day practically doing nothing, except for pillow fights, or rather, pillow lynching individuals for fun. haha, esp those appointment holders whom we hate and love at the same time..

at about 1615, we were gathered at some place near the parade square, doing all the last few checks and warm up etc, getting ready for the parade that starts in about an hour's time. at first, we wondered what we could do that will take up an hour, we found out very shortly. haha. some warm up drills etc, and some scolding here and there easily hit an hour..

i wasn't psyched up at all, neither did i feel the hype.. until we were minutes away from the parade, when we were formed up at the "FUP".. when the band started playing.. then the excitement rushed into my body.. we were singin at the top of our voices, the audience were clapping, there was so much hustle and bustle on the normally tranquil parade square.
the crowd was not bad, clearly some cadets had pretty sisters, relatives, friends, girlfriends etc. haha but the grandstand was too far for us to see much, probably a case of "good from far, far from good."
i was very distracted at first, lookin out for my family.. and i nearly missed the first salute. haha. only heard the last few words of the command. the parade went well, although we all felt that the drill was quite sucky.. but my mum said that from the stands, you hear most stuff as one sound only, so it APPEARED not bad. haha.
maybe it was the crowd, but time seemed to fly, pass by so quickly, as your mind was no longer focus on the stupid boring segments of the parade.
at the end of the parade, the commandos did a mini performance, as everyone threw up their peak caps, we ran from our locations to the middle of the parade square, very quickly earning the attention of the crowds.. den we kneeled down in a circle and put on our berets again.. just a few simple cheers and we had eyes on us, camera flashes on us...
haha, superstar treatment.
then the commando officers came down, gave the handshake etc.. it was indeed a proud and happy moment... soaking up the atmosphere..
then we just went around taking photos and stuff.. talking, congratulating each other.. and returning salutes of the junior cadets. haha

i was happy, i know. but then again, i felt very tired. exhausted from this 5 month long course, from all the recent parade rehearsals etc. i felt unsure if i was looking forward to going back to commandos formation for i know that training and expectations will be damn bloody hard.. so after this short break.. it'll be back to the land of the red berets..

and thanks to richard batara, i got to take a photo with hcjc '05 prom queen - ms jingmin! haha
well, until this entry, i still don't know her. but it's ok. haha, just a joke that the hcjc ppl in my platoon share during our arduous days in OCS. so we all took a photo with her. haha.

it's a hell load of emotions that rush through your body during the parade..
fatigue, happiness, excitement, anxiety, worries, confusion.. so many that i don't know if i feel anything. haha.

but all in all, to wrap it up, i guess i'm happy that i've reached another milestone in the NS liability and i can't wait to ORD. haha. :D

2006-12-05T22:53:00.000+08:00

hey guys..i m back after being mia for a long long time..well i m gonna b commissioned in a few days time...which means will become officer soon for those hu dunno wad commission means...this ocs journey for me has been one that bonded me v close to my frens...n has oso been one..which is so unforgettable n full of ups n downs...

act life in ocs foxtrot (name of my company) has been really fun...the wing comd (which is like the civics tutor back in jc days) takes really gd care of us and emphasizes a lot bout being bonded together like a family..n i guess this is a part of foxtrot that makes it such a special company...hmm...it is oso here in ocs that i got the most painful experience in my 19 yrs of life...hmm...but now that it is all over its quite a relief...

we haf been slogging our lungs out like dogs for the past wk..doing rehearsals after rehearsals juz for the parade on saturday...well..actually the parade doesnt really mean much to me now...mayb juz a chance for my parents to watch and help me put on my rank...other than that...it doesnt really haf much meaning compared to the past...hmm...oh...last wk i oso received the sword during the appointment certificate presentation ceremony...its more shiok to receive the sword i guess..yup...cos it looks quite nice...

anyway..i really miss those days in jc where we used to go everywhere n anywhere other than lecture halls...miss those days where we juz sit at yakun for like 3 or 4 hours?doin nothing but talking cock...miss those days where we wld b amazed at how many ppl there r studying in the library and yet there we r studying...n the many sessions i spent w perhaps samuel or ngee poo at the airport to study...how i miss my bball trainings...the class bench...the asshole dai dee n bridge...n not forgetting the cutting up of cards w kiet n piecing them back together again in e staff room...n the long waits at the bus stop of nj....so many tings i did before which i enjoyed...really miss everyone of those hu r close or haf been close to me...yup...

to all my gd frens out there...wun mention names here...u guys know hu u r...=)...thx for being there to always put a smile on my face...thx for all e weird expressions on ur face and the seal-like laughters and the middle finger that is always crooked and the pretty boy's smile and the short twins and the ever muscular...i hope i did put a smile on urs too...do keep in contact cos i know its gonna b quite tough?yup...hope tings goes well for everyone of u n do take care of urselves...yup...

to all army guys juz 1 more yr to go...in a blink of n eye n it wld b over...
to all uni girls do work hard n play hard s well...

n finally to myself...commission lo...=)

2006-12-01T23:36:00.000+08:00

hey..its my turn to blog...and i bet you after i blog, it's gonna be stagnant again..its a vicious cycle..but anyhow, its time for me to say something here..though there really isnt much to talk about now that exams are finally over...

well..exams are well..erm not too good..to put it really positively...didnt complete 70% of my papers..coz there's simply not enough time..and i never felt this bad over exams before..and guess there'll always be a first time?

But anyway, when i was studying for exams, i kept thinking of the times when the whole lot of us took exams together..it really made the process of taking an exam so much easier...i mean..to have the company of good friends when u go through horrid papers was really fun...but now i can only rely on one good friend..and thats germaine..which is a stark contrast to that back in jc...

haha do u all still remember when we studied for chem exams..we remembered those reaction proportions by the number pattern...i think tollen's reagent was 23242..haha..and i think there was a 4355..haha i really cannot remember anymore than tollen's (if i even got that one right)..and tag is always making funny jokes of the contents like Markovnikov's rule..haha i'll nv forget that joke...hahahaha..shit im just laughing idiotically as i write this post..haha but those are good memories..and i bet im not the only one who remembers them..=)

i really have nothing much to say now..just hope that u all are doing well wherever u may be right now...and hope things will get better each day...do have fun this festive season coz 'tis the season to be jolly!

Cheerss!

tyjjbtddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd

2006-11-18T13:43:00.000+08:00

yo blogging here upod special request from celest....hahahaaa....well abt 3 weeks b4 i POP... get rank... faster than tag... hahahaa... after that where i go depends on fate... might go guards or infantry or if lucky remain as instructor...

originally wanted to go after prom party on 4dec but well my POP is 5dec... rather gay...

and yeah diya is on superstar... hahah when she sang her best song Hei Se You Mo she got average comments only... hahahahaaa her face was damn er daoed

and yea OCS ppl getting commissioned soon oso... congrats on becoming gods... 1000 plus salary... but then again if i luckily get 8to5 vocation then i will chiong and help ppl do guard duty and COS... earn extra money... hahahhaa my fren corporal only but hes earning like 900 plus a month.... and guard duty isnt especially xiong... just takes up your time... but for single and gay deprived shits its ok...hahahaa...

2006-11-18T13:14:00.000+08:00

haha... i think i'm going crazy... totally not in de mood to mug when i still got many more papers to go... here're a few pics dat we took during maf 06... quite a pity dat chin, jun & many others cldnt make it... it wld haf been even better if u guyz were ard to join in de fun! =P

p.s. disgusting as it is, notice phyllis grabbing smth in de 1st pic... hahaha...

surprise! haha...

2006-11-17T08:42:00.000+08:00

surprise surprise!!! haha... i'm kinda amidst my exam period rite now... but well, a few more mins of slacking wldnt realli make a difference... haha... anw, i've had 2 papers so far... econs & jap... 4 more to go... last paper on 1st dec!!! kiet ends a few days earlier than me, on de 27th or 28th... arghh...i think mine's de longest battle across all de facs... *sianz* well, itz been quite a long while since we last sat for exams... but de feeling's still de same... a mix of anxiety, panic & a whole lot of blankness... econs was my 1st, & lucky me got to sit 1st in de row, wif dis stupid tcher either standing by my side or walking back & forth in front of me de whole time... how freaking distracting... & for my fave jap paper, i was sitting last in de row, under dis staircase landing, wch made it rather dark... first class seats i've got...

anw, econs was quite a flop for me... veri disappointing... de fact dat i'd taken econs b4 actualli gives me a gd advantage over those who've nv taken econs b4... so all dis while, i've been coping pretty fine in econs... i also looked thru de last few sems' papers, wch seemed rather manageable... but for some sickening reason, dis yr's econs paper was veri diff frm past sems'! de qns' weightage were much higher (5m, 8m, 10m) as compared to de past sems' (2m, 3m, 5m)!!! de saddest thing was dat de qns in front were too time-consuming, so i ended up not hving enuf time for de EASY qns at de back... u noe how xin tong it was when i saw those veri straightforward macro qns at de back, especially as compared to de disgusting micro qns in front! and when de invigilator announced dat it was 15mins to de end of de paper, i seriously panicked... coz i hvent started on de last pg of qns at all! i scribbled de ugliest & most illegible handwriting of all time lah... cld hardly read my own handwriting after dat... *faint*

jap was comparatively a zillion times better!!! mwahaha... so happy lor... in case u start teasing dat itz juz me, i think quite a few of de others found de paper easy too... haha... probably coz i did do proper preparation for it ba... read thru my txtbk twice... not smth i'd do for any other subject... =P hahaha...

anw, not sure if u guyz met up for steamboat de other day...? i realli wanted to go lor... since i wasnt exactly mugging away at home anyway... but well, it'll be tough to persuade my parents ba... to dem, me staying at home = me studying... >_<

anw, after our exams end, must meet up again... go suki! hahaha... i hvent been there in a long while lor... de last time was probably when we last went together... wch was how many yrs ago... haha... but of coz, if no one's craving for sushi, den we can always go somewhere else... =P

2006-11-05T23:34:00.000+08:00

hey hey! i'm back! haha
well, i guess this is yet another attempt to salvage, rescue this blog from it's deathbed. :P

this weekend has been a very interesting, upset, disappointing, yet fruitful, surprising, special weekend for me!
this weekend, clara was really busy with her proj. (due tml), her work and many other stuff. so i only got to see her twice, both for pretty short time.
this evening, i had dinner all alone at ikea. it's been a long while since i've done that, normally i would somehow manage to find some frens and drag them out to keep me company. haha, thanks kiet. :P
it feels like i was leading the singlehood life again, the shopping alone and all..
i won't say that i was happy, but it was a nice feeling yet again. having so much freedom, and having so much time in my hands, and of couse being able to spend time with my family and friends.
saturday was spent at my grandma's place, nice to see all my relatives again, den i went home early and slept pretty early i guess. haha. it's been a long while since i last lazed at home all day. :P
sunday was pretty good. lunch with my parents, den went down to parkway to play some pool with zhiyin and some of my frens. den went for a NICE haircut.. haha. and played some lan..den met clara to get my SAT notes to study. bleah.

well, as i was saying. this alone thing felt very weird, and a tinge of upset that she wasn't free for me, but at the same time very nice and special. somehow, walking alone, shopping alone, it felt very tranquil, like u block out everything, creating your own world, yet at the same time u feel like u're an observant eye, taking everything around you in..

well, i think when i was walking alone, i had more thoughts but now sitting in front of the comp, i have a mental block. and i have to get back to writing stupid lines for punishment. SUCKS.

2006-11-01T22:52:00.000+08:00

finally got into blogger after many days of attempts! haha
well, back from taiwan. now i don't really dare to talk abt training stuff, for fear MSD might come breathing down my neck in the days to come. haha.
now ocs has internet and it's kinda fun. haha. sometimes we're all in our bunks, chatting to each other, like idiots. haha.
oh wells, here's just a short entry, shall blog more next time when i got more inspiration.
btw, i wrote a freaking 3000 word essay for addressing some lame shit cadet by his name. and now i've gotta write a 1000 lines of "i will whisper during missions." because i talked during mission, damn stupid, cos the wind was howling on top of the ridgeline, as if anyone could have heard me. oh wells. it's not just OCS, it's cos i'm in a scholar wing. haha.

2006-10-14T00:12:00.000+08:00

hey guys!

thanks for the birthday celebration during maf!really really enjoyed it..and didnt expect it at all..haha thanks for the well-planned surprise..maybe also coz im rather gullible...phyllis just asked me to stay outside toilet to wait for the guys then i just stood there with her to wait..even though i thought it was kinda weird...im so retarded!!

this year's birthday was erm good and bad i guess...the good part was with all of you guys at hc...and with my family...who bought me my all-time favourite chocolate cake..and with my og with that really thoughtful bag of snacks to tide me thru hungry nights..haha

but then, there was like project due the day after my birthday..and i was rushing the entire project alone when it was supposed to be a freaking group project..and i got pretty pissed with my project group mates..but obviously,knowing the nice person that i am, i didnt confront them of course..just rush and do the project lorr....sigh...this really made me miss my pw group..coz like i think as much as lyanna and i always complained about daochang, we managed to do things together and get stuff done together..sigh..I REALLY MISS HWA CHONG!

sigh i miss sitting at class bench slacking away and playing cards. i missed walking that walkway to the bus stop after school. i miss talking cock during lectures with the class. i miss tag's, np's and kh's funny antics. i miss going ya kun and talk for like 4 hours with you guys. i miss going coffeebean and chilling. i miss having you guys laugh at me for the stupid expressions i make. i miss having you guys look at me and anticipating the funny expressions that i'll give every time desmond does something weird..sigh...i really miss...

but oh well, now all we can do is to keep this bond strong, so that there are more things to look forward to than to miss..=)

hope everyone is doing real great.cheers!

2006-10-04T11:25:00.000+08:00

hey all! kiet was grumbling dat each time she blogs, it'll be a very long time b4 anyone blogs again... haha... so i shall reduce her sian diao-ness by blogging too! =P

anw, abt buying txtbks rite... so far, i've managed to survive without buying a single txtbk! mwahaha... a few seniors offered to pass me their txtbks for free... & got delivery service summore... shuang rite! oh, & some of dem r like brand new... realli cant believe my luck... but anw, a word of advice to u guyz, if u're not as lucky as me to get free bks, consider getting 2nd hand bks, coz u get dem at half de original price & can resell dem after u finish ur module at de same price! alternatively, u cld also get brand new txtbks & resell dem at ard half price or more, depending on de condition of ur book... datz an option for some of us who dun realli fancy using 2nd hand bks... de need to feel de sense of 1st-hand ownership... =P

oh yah, maf's coming!!! kiet & i were juz talking abt it a while ago... coz today's wed, & we supposedly haf more time together in de rm... hmm... dat sounded wrong... but anw... i heard dis yr's maf is gonna be realli sucky... like even some councillors also asking their frenz not to go... >_< sigh... i guess we're back mainly for a gathering, visit de sch, etc etc... so de programmes lined up shudnt realli matter to us so long as dey still haf de mass dances at de end of de event! haha... slap their faces a thousand times if dey cancel de mass dance section...

i actualli haf a lot to complain abt dis particular cca of mine... but scared got spies ard to backstab me, so i shall practise self-censorship on dis blog... shall curse & swear abt it when i nxt meet up wif u guyz... wch is dis coming sat i hope... =P

2006-09-16T20:24:00.000+08:00

heyhey boys and girls...kiet mei is backk...you guys took so long to update..and now it has finally reached my turn:)have been really busy with uni and stuff and i realised i havent seen s65 peeps for very very long...hopefully, next weekend's outing will work out:)
anyways, celest and i are roomies..but yeah we hardly see each other during the day..mostly in the mornings when we wake up and at night when we are finally done with all our commitments..haha coz both celest and my timetables kinda clash..like on mon and thurs i have choir til 10pm then on tues and fridays, celest has tkd til very late too..so yup...but we spend our free wed together..haha rushing our homework and stuff..
i tell u..uni is so so different from jc..its like no more spoonfeeding..notes also have to go print yourself...lecture notes are not substantial enough..so textbooks are a must must...dont go n save that money in uni next time k...coz u really cant survive on the notes...can seriously burn them and go read ur textbook k..yeahhh
so as u can see, both celest and i are quite involved with our non academic stuff..like i have choir main comm, investment club subcomm(dont ask why),hall subcomm..this subcomm that subcomm..celest even more...but she's really not that important in this post of mine..
anyways,i really dont think im a hall kinda girl..i mean..i live there and all during weekdays, but nothing beats home..seriously..except maybe the computer i have in hall..wah seriously damn chio...the screen is damn big lah..coz i have a desktop...haha..im in love with my computer...and i dont really sleep well in hall..i mean i sleep...but i dont think i sleep as well as i do at home..so when i go home during weekends..i just sleep like a log...
ooohhh..another thing i've decided..and concluded from what i see in jc and now uni...singapore has very few goodlooking guys..with the exceptions of hongyi and yongjun and hongyi's bballer friends...yeah..its sad i know..im just as sad as you are..but oh well..what can we do right...oh except that mr singapore 2006 lives my downstairs...and i relly look forward to the days he walk along the corridor half-naked..coz his body is like how HOT..haha im damn perverted..but seriously, i think if a guy saw his body, he'll be damn damn jealous..dont believe ask celest..he's celest's good friend..haha...but he's not too shuai..but body gets perfect score...i tell you ah..can see his rippling muscles under his skin...and its really damn defined la..if you want to learn all the different types of muscles in your body, use his as a sample..haha shit im chao pervert;)
k lah..i think i typed alot alot alot already..its somebody else's turn..please keep this blog alive..thank you very much..:)and until my next very interesting post about me and mr singapore..stay tuned..

2006-09-10T08:41:00.000+08:00

yo gugujiaos...if there is a gathering or something make it on weekend can.... fri night or sat whole day or sun morn/afternoon.... paiseh i have no visible block leave for now... but soon i will have Hospital Attachment (Changi General Hospital) and Ambulance Attachment (Paya Lebar Fire Station) where i get to see all the real cases of sliced skulls, exposed brain, trajectory bloodsprays and stuff liddat. but thats besides the pt... my pt is, after my shift i will be free alr for each of the day during this period... which means im free and available..hahaaa.. but this period still rather far away so i dunno why im saying it now. so, knn

sad sia ocs ppl ant make it to maf... but i hope all e rest can make it... imagine doing Electric Dreams again... singing Zhi Wei Na Ai again... imagine seeing all the as if, strutting-around, sportsbag-toting actchio girls again... imagine seeing siva again...imagine sitting at the class bench again... imagine walking the same old overhead bridge again....

anw NTU peeps i might be gg to ntu every sat soon to use the studio over there to break... maybe can go find ppl arounds...hahaha...

2006-09-09T19:31:00.000+08:00

heys, feeling guilty of not blogging for like ages, so i will make up for it now. haha
i kinda wanna blog about the brunei trip cos it was really an enriching experience for me.
i can't really talk too much about the training cos apparently it breaches the military security act or something lar.
brunei wasn't as hard as i thought it would be. maybe cos cslc's trip to taiwan made me much tougher than i thought i was. well, the only tough part was me falling ill over there.
don't think it was the food or water, cos i already felt the stomach pain in singapore, and the doctor couldn't really diagnose anything, she said it could be stomach wind or something.
den the medical officer over at brunei said that i might have slight constipation.
den the doctor i saw when i came back said that it could be gastric.
so maybe it's all 3 together, that's why so pain...
cos of this stupid pain, i gave up my appointments for the two exercises and didn't really get a chance to perform over at brunei, so i lost the chance to go for school appointment interviews. but i guess it's ok. since now i'm the cadet wing commander, having more opportunities in fact, for my instructors to see me in action rather than school apptments...
in brunei, one of the officers on course, (this guy wanted to refresh his skills before moving onto unit, esp since he disrupted to study in america), got injured on one of the mountains there.
and i was part of the casualty evacuation party. this made the mission more realistic than anything else possible. he was in utter pain, and his pale lips and the way his face cringed really made it very mentally stressful for us to carry him down, for fear of aggravating his injury. this mental fear, somehow, made us momentarily forget about his weight on our shoulders. i only felt it after he was safely escorted into the boat back to base camp. but for the night, i felt like a hero, felt like i did a good deed. not too often for someone as mean as me, some of you out there might feel. haha
another interesting experience for me was the soccer game in brunei. foxtrot, despite always having more games time than delta, lost 3 - 0 to us. haha. my team played like pros lar, as if we play regularly together every weekend. pin point crossing and heading etc..
but that's not my point. my point is that, during a game with the instructors, i injured an instructor. in an attempt to head the ball, our heads clashed and i gashed his eyebrow.. resulting in a 3cm long and deep cut. blood was gushing out and flowed into his eyes. at first, i thought i had poked his eye. it was a scary and heart stopping sight for me. from then on, i had no mind to play on.
overall, brunei was quite bad for me, cos of the stomach pain that i had to fight with nearly every alternate day, even during the "mosque and museum" day.. but the flight back was superb. never felt so happy before, besides of cos, the day me and clara got together. hahaha. :D

i would like to have moved onto more emo and relationships stuff. haha. but i realised it's quite meaningless. and besides, i'm sure many of u out there would be like.. "oh man.. not again.." haha. so no point lar.

now in ocs, i feel quite slack, esp when i hear all the scary stories of the training that the commando boys are going thru back at battalion.. wonder how i'm gonna take them in future...
hmm, if i manage to win a sword in ocs, i think the class should turn up. HAHA. no lar, cos this time, there'll be ngee poo and chin hoe too! and to all the girls who think that tze phern is cute. haha. he'll be there too. and richard batara too! haha.

well, we have a block leave before taiwan, so i think we can meet up then! try and arrange somehting ya?

hopefully when the internet comes into camp, we can blog more. :)

~home sweet home~

2006-09-09T12:25:00.000+08:00

heyz! i finally get to relax a bit more at home dis wkend... for de past few wks since sch started, i cld onli spend at most 1 day & 1 nite at home coz of various activities dat dragged on to saturday... & i go back to hall on sunday nites coz i haf early lessons on mon... so itz been rather sad dat i hvent been able to spend much time wif my family, & hvent managed to settle some stuff at home, or juz be able to slack (aka "nua" in uni lingo) in my rm, like wat i used to do...

kiet & i were juz talking abt how we miss going out wif u guyz, juz hanging out at starbucks, go kbox-ing, watch movies, sushi buffet, etc etc... staying in ntu hall is realli veri fun & happening...but itz quite true when pple say dat u'll feel like u're cut off from de rest of de world... ntu itself is such a self-contained or self-sufficient place... u study here, u eat here, u play here, u live here... previously, when kiet had yet to bring in her tv, we felt like we werent quite in touch wif any happenings outside of ntu... but well, at least now we get to watch de news or smth... =P

anw, my past wk had been quite hectic, i had 3 tests - jap, effective communication & computing... & i realised, after my seniors reminded me, dat in uni, itz not like u can afford to slack in de 1st yr & catch up in ur 2nd yr or smth (as in de case of jc life) coz ultimately, when it comes to de grade point average, every single test in every yr of ur course goes towards de computation of ur GPA... so if u flunk once, it'll be difficult to pull up ur GPA even when u wanna buck up later... & well, during de wk, i had a tkd comm meeting wif sports club, siggraph comm meeting, engine camp gl interview, hall production comm interview, hall prod casting (i was there to oversee, not to audition for de roles), tkd trainings, tkd comm meeting + handover + outing... yah, guess u haf a clearer idea on wat i mean when i say uni life's bz... hahaha... but of coz, i must confess... despite these activities, i guess i COULD haf spent more time studying, doing tutorials & sleeping, had i not wasted time doing crappy things like juz browsing pics on my com, re-reading emails, surfing de net, chatting online, watching some of de croc hunter's clips (frm 2-3+am), doing laundry (at 4am), watching tkd clips online, etc... i'm sure kiet now has a clearer idea on wat i mean when i say i procrastinate a lot, & keep doing anything else but my tutorials... but i must definitely thank kiet for her supervision, constantly reminding me to focus on my work, though it hasnt exactly been effective coz she's not strict enuf yet... haha... oh yeah, i must definitely give credit to kiet for her self-discipline & conscientiousness... realli take my hat off her... she was watching tv for a short while, & was telling me dat dis veri nice prog dat she likes was gonna start showing... but all of a sudden, she juz switched off de tv... so i was like hmm? did i hear her wrongly...? upon clarification, she told me dat she wanted to focus on her tutorial despite de fact dat she realli wanted to watch dat prog... haha... i was momentarily stunned... coz i cld nv do smth liddat... i wld juz leave de tv on & continue watching, & at most, get back to doing my work during commercial breaks... there's obviously a lot i hafta learn from kiet... hopefully, i'll be able to rub off some of her diligence & perseverance (esp at doing her veri tedious & at times, frustrating tutorials)...

i think i realli enjoy staying in hall, though it can get realli bz coz of de many commitments i haf... & i'm sure u guyz shud noe, i tend to be quite enthu abt various activities... so dis makes me even busier... nevertheless, when i think abt dis new lifestyle dat i now lead, i think i realli find it tremendously fulfilling... life in hall is not that tough in terms of hving to take care of ur own needs, coz if u need food, de canteens are there, if u need any daily necessities, de supermart's there, if u need to do ur laundry, de washing machines are there... but still, i think i've grown to treasure family time more than before coz i feel dat my parents realli miss not hving me ard at home, & so do i miss not seeing dem as often as before... itz definitely a lot more freedom we haf, but at de same time, itz gonna put my self-discipline to test... my grades will certainly testify to dat...

a very long post from me to make up for my mia-ness on de blog... hope everyone will haf a great wk & i'm looking forward to our nxt gathering... ^_^

p.s. chin, u volunteered to organise rite? hehe... =P

2006-08-31T07:39:00.000+08:00

boo...i m back here...juz came back fr brunei...hmm..it was quite fun..juz that many many things happened...yup..

wonder how everyone is doing...kiet n celest muz b super busy w their uni lives ba...hmm...samuel ar...mayb u REALLY will haf a lot of ppl under u....mayb 60000...hmm...yj dun so negative about ocs oso ma...yeah...actually its quite fun..hmm..mayb its juz the diff wings ba..hmm...

juz got new computers in camp...so gd...now got internet access le....hmm...at least free time wun b so boring le..hmm...anyway..the senior batch is commissioning...i wonder when i will commission...its like still so far away lar..hmm..still muz go to ROC first then can commission..hmm...hope it wldnt b that xiong..hmm...

wonder how everyone is doin..hmm..mayb can meet for lunch or sth lar..yeah...wan me to organise sth??hmm...mayb i shld lar..yeah...c how first k?hmm...msg everyone again ba..yup..hmm...take care ppl...

gjbdtrj drt

2006-07-30T16:21:00.000+08:00

yo ppl im blogging here for the first time in a very very long time....hahahaa.... hope theres still ppl still checking out this blog every now and then.... well ppl can we get a class gathering back at hc itself.... im free from wed to sun during national day week... but im really not hoping for much cos as tag and i have realized, its fucking hard to even get ppl to come out for a lunch together... im not blaming the ppl who really got something on, but what about the ppl who dun even bother to reply smses... who pangseh at last minute... im not saying names here but its really not fair to those ppl who are working and in NS can take time out of their meagre free time.....

anw next week or rather tmr gg back tekong... exercise wanderer and grandslam... damn sian... altho i think this fri can book out alr

2006-07-02T21:41:00.000+08:00

i always mean to blog, but every single time i get down to a draft, i cant finish it and i end up just deleting that crap piece of unfinished blog entry. anyhows, let me try and see if i can complete this entry. and if u do read it on the blog then the chances are i did finish typing this post. heh=) enjoy.

lets see..let me just share with u the two weeks that i spent in europe, specifically paris and switzerland. i went paris with my dad and sis for like four days, then i took train to zurich to meet my little bro and mum there. yup so anyways, paris was a really nice place..very historical..the buildings there are like ancient. and i really liked the architecture there..with all the scuptures and arty-farty things that really added something special to the atmosphere there..however, the french werent exactly the friendliest bunch of pple..it might be coz they dont speak english. so there was always this constant gap in communication..but listening to the pple speak french was quite an experience too!!it was really cool, and it really made me realise the fact that im in a foreign land. so basically, i just visited the many places of interest there, like the lourve museum and saw the painting of mona lisa, the notre dame, arc de triomphe, eiffel tower of course! yeah all these architecture dated back to like the-dont-know-what centuries!so they were old, quaint and very charming..didnt get to do much shopping there..mostly window-shopping coz the stuff there were really expensive. and the three of us survived on mainly pastries,bread and cake for our meals. but those were exceptional pastries, bread and cake. the ones u get there are like ten times better than what we are offered here in breadtalk, delifrance and whatever u have here..its really hard to describe the taste for u guys, but it was simply delicious.
and over at france, we took the metro (the mrt there) everywhere..and the system is like so complex i tell u. coz if u get onto the wrong train u might get shipped off to portugal or italy. so we always had to check the routes really carefully before we got on any train. and so, we cleverly found our way to versailles, this town outside of paris, where the chateau de versailles (palace of versailles) is located. and THAT was one hell of a palace i tell u..the land area is probably half of singapore or even more! we took a tour of the palace..visited the different rooms and there was this room called the hall of mirrors where the treaty of versailles was signed..which i thought was pretty cool coz that was something i learnt in history..haha how nerdy..but yeah..it was very interesting to be in a room where history was made..

after paris, we left on an 8hour train ride to zurich, switzerland..one of the most expensive places in the entire whole..apparently, it has highest standard of living in the world..and we thought paris was expensive..so yeah..switzerland is basically a place made up of mountains..and snowy mountains at that!!even in summer..there are swiss alps everywhere i tell u..we visited the more famous (or rather the higher) peaks of the alps..and it was freezing up there..oh and in case u were wondering how i even got on top of a mountain..i did not climb up there k..the swiss are a bunch of highly intelligent pple..they have an extremely sophisticated system of cable cars and railway that takes u all the way to up to over 3000m.pretty cool i might say..but switzerland is seriously beautiful..every where u turn, there's this mountain range with its peaks slightly hidden by clouds..should show u guys my pics..really looked like i was standing in some fake background for some postcard thingy!yups then there was the chocolate train route which i took which brought us to several chocolate factories in switzerland..so thats where all the chocolates came from..and if anything is cheap in switzerland, it is definitely the chocolates..we bought like 200 bucks worth of chocs and biscuits back to spore..btw, if any of u are thinking of buying ur swatch watched in switzerland, u can just get them in spore..coz they are cheaper here at home..the other swiss watches arent cheap either..in the thousands range..so yup, didnt buy any watches..

k lar..dont know if i typed enough..oh and i think europe's a really fun place to travel with friends! so maybe when all of us have made some money and have some time on our hands, we can all go together! yup thats all that happened to me in the month of june..now that july's started, hope everyone has a great month ahead. until my next entry..bye!!=)

2006-07-02T10:43:00.000+08:00

first thing first.. aha
sorry kiets, totally forgot that i was supposed to tell u whether i can make it on saturday.. haha
i was still wondering why u nv tell me abt the clique outing on saturday.. sorry ya.. anyway.. i'm sure we can still meet up some other day ya? :)

first week in OCS.. wonder what i can talk about.. there's so much emphasis on security in there. haha. like MSD and stuff.. but i guess it should be ok to talk about what i hate inside ya? haha
well, some ppl like the fact that it's a 2-man bunk or rather ROOM.. but it's not exactly what i like/want.. esp after all the nice fun i've had back at commando camps.. it's the 12 or 20 man bunks that are lively and fun.. all the nights that we just sit around, snack on our junk food, and crap about missions, weekends, suaning each other, talk about hot chicks etc.. haha.. the simple fun of just chilling out.. listening to some guy's ipod etc... with hardly any restrictions...
unlike in OCS where lights out is at 2230.. so early.. AND we only get like REAL free time after 2200? somewhere there normally after RO.. RO is the dumbest thing ever.. esp when the things they tell us are like same everyday? what time lights out, what time revellie, and what's the programme tml.. all these, it's like can just tell us after dinner or something.. why muz wait till 2130 - 2200, den have a parade, etc.. it's really like BMT training or WORSE.. no wonder all my seniors say that OCS will be a cultural shock to commandos cos we've never done all these before, unlike for them who gone thru bmtc training...

well.. as for the training pace.. now it's still ok.. but they really try and pack every lesson every period.. then we like keep rushing for meals etc.. dunno why also.. sometimes it's quite bad esp when it's like u dun really need to spend so much time doing certain stuff.. but the army's just like that lar.. and the discipline is really like UP UP UP there in OCS.. dunno why.. maybe cos during their service terms, extras (confinements) are given out like presents.. whereas in commando camps we just do push ups. haha. actually not really lar. but we just don't get extras so easily i guess. and we still have our fun. now i wonder how we did that. haha

hmm, i shall stop shooting down ocs. haha. cos they're trying to produce good officers for the nation. haha. perhaps now all still going thru training phase so not so good yet, maybe in time to come, things will get better. but the cadets are really so law-abiding. haha. not like us, like to hiong abit here and there... haha. like back in pasir ris camp we really think we damn big.. haha. walk around, eat in bunks etc.. haha.. see officers also greet only. here still must salute.. den sometimes dunno whether to salute or not.. just weird lar. haha.
but i still prefer the commando style.. outfield or training, we put in our best effort den when we get back to camp or free time, it's like totally relaxed.. unlike in ocs where like 24/7 on the ball, on your toes, cannot do this, cannot do that..

well, there was one night during BAC, that all my frens gathered around and we talked about many stuff.. from relationships, to religion, to faith...
"faith is holding on and believeing in something that is intangible and something that you cannot see..."
is that true? hmm..
i don't know. faith = trust?
but faith is good.. faith keeps one positive. it's like, u have something to believe in, something that makes life much more meaningful, something that can make u feel better when things go wrong. when everything around you becomes shit, it takes alot of faith, alot of determination to make things right again...
i dunno what crap i'm talking about. haha

have a good week guys. somehow, i have a bad feeling about next week. haha. OCS. bleah.

tadaima! i'm back from nippon! haha... =P

2006-06-27T20:40:00.000+08:00

hey all! itz me! back from japan finally... haha... went there for ard 9 days & was still a little yi yi bu she when i left! haha... was still telling kiet dat i wanna go japan when i've onli been back for 2 days... =P

anw, my time spent in japan was pretty relaxed... realli juz take my own sweet time to shop ard, slack ard, eat ard, etc... spent de bulk on transportation i guess... jap transportation realli very ex... to and from de airport, trains, subways, buses... cost me abt S$100+... food there was damn nice! haha... ate DIY okonomiyaki (like a jap pizza kinda thing... super fun!), monjya yaki (similar to okonomiyaki), takoyaki (damn nice, wif huge, generous pieces of octopus inside), ramen (de soup base was superb! veri flavourful), korokke (crab cream crochette, corn cream crochette, curry crochette, 100 times better than wat u get at corokochan or watever dat chain is called), authentic beard papa (superbly fresh cream!), soft cream (aka ice-cream... i was adventurous enuf to try miso flavour, wch was surprisingly yummy...i loved de black sesame one too), dango (glutinous rice balls on sticks wif delicious sweet sauce on top), lotz & lotz of zaru soba & zaru udon (cold noodles... ate quite a few times coz itz summer)! haha... as u can see, i definitely had feasted on all de jap food i cld lay my hands on during my trip... forgot to mention, jap bread rox too! haha...itz so nice & fluffy, soft & veri visually appealing... de wide variety of bread u can find at de bakeries... all of dem look so appetising u juz feel like grabbing one of each to place on ur tray... i tried de recent craze there...cheese fondue bread...omg... de melted cheese inside will seriously melt ur heart when ur taste buds taste de richness & freshness of de cheese... it definitely complements de light & fluffy bread on de outside... a perfect combination... omg...juz thinking abt it makes my mouth water... >_<

other than de food, de fashion there was certainly stunning too! haha... u realli get to see a huge mix of outrageous fashion...those who can pull it off look simply amazing... but on de other hand, those who cant look like horrendous fashion disasters... but seriously, u can realli tell de effort dey put into de way dey dress... all de accessories dat match wif de whole look dat dey're trying to portray... some of dem realli noe how to dress in order to bring out their personality... realli amazing how dey pay attention to all sorts of details... like belt, handbag, manicure, pedicure designs to match a certain theme... realli damn cool... & of coz, de guyz will seriously feast on de countless ultra short skirts worn by de high sch gals... juz a light breeze is more than sufficient to set their skirts flying... haha...

another key attraction of my trip...shoes!!! omg... saw so many very cool & funky shoes! haha...many interesting designs dat u probably wun ever see in s'pore... & de best thing is dey arent dat ex! i was so tempted to get a few pairs myself... dey were juz all so funky... adidas, nike, vans, dc, reebok, puma, converse... i think de reason y some of de shoes were actualli rather reasonably priced is bcoz dey're sorta out of fashion in japan, but in sg, dey're still quite trendy... japan is juz way ahead in leading trends...

jap hps rock too! u shud seriously take a look at their designs, & u'll boo a lot of de so-called pro hps in s'pore... haha... huge screens & slim fones! realli veri light, sleek & de sound quality rox... de hps arent veri ex either... i was so tempted to get one myself, but dey dun work in sg coz de network's different or smth liddat... *sighz*

oh yeah, i watched a baseball match! haha... quite a cool experience... smth new... dun think i'll ever get to experience dat in s'pore... de match was btw de nagoya home team's "Chunichi Dragons" & tokyo's "Giants"... de nagoya home team won! haha... dey were realli zai...dey've been ranked 1st on de leaderboard for quite some time... when u watch pro baseball, u realli wonder how dey can throw so super accurately & bat so far away into de outfield... while de teams change over for new innings, cheerleaders wld run out into de field & start doing some cheerleading, & their mascot wld be somersaulting ard like some super gymnast! haha... realli entertaining... de mascot was realli pro at doing those flips & stuff... perfect landing all de time! he shud join de olympics lah... haha... he's already doing such great gymnastics in a huge and bulky costume, bet he'll be even better if he were in some tights doing some real gymnastics at a competition...

well, all in all, i think my japan trip was merely like some getaway from de hustle & bustle of life in s'pore... hmm... ok, dat might not be right, coz i wasnt realli dat busy since it was de sch hols... but de point is i cld realli relax & haf little distraction there... watched soccer every nite coz de jap tv broadcasts all de matches, & even shows de jap team during their training... now dat i'm back in s'pore, wun get to watch de matches until ch5 starts broadcasting from de quarterfinals onwards or smth...

oh yah, now dat i'm back in sg...shall we meet up on sat, 1st jul? seems like i missed out on de gathering u all had last wk, when i was away... hmph... not sure if de guyz will be able to squeeze out some time off their busy schedule again dis wkend... shall keep my fingers crossed! haha... alritez, very long post... dis is wat i tend to do... procrastinate & procrastinate abt blogging, but when i finally get started, i'll haf a lot a lot to say...like to make up for de sporadic posting... =P

take care everyone! ^_^

2006-06-18T17:40:00.000+08:00

hmm.. apparently, i guess most of us are kinda busy now..
esp adeline.. 3 JOBS... really need cash so badly ah???
haha..
well, celest and kiet.. update lar! keep this blog going.. haha

it's been nice meeting the clique over the last 2 weekends.
haha, interesting that only me and kiet appeared for both.. two idiots that are too free? haha but at least that means that i got to see most of the clique already. haha. or rather all. but still, to a certain extent, i miss school.. dunno why. it's like the army makes u cherish and appreciate little things that you never really cherished in the past.
one thing that we always took for granted in the past, freedom.
actually, i think somehow, hearing stories from ppl from infantry, bmtc, sispec, ocs..
commandos are actually quite welfare and good.
although our training can be quite xiong, but like back in camp, our instructors are damn nice and stuff.. we still get our nights off etc.. it's really a train hard, play hard mentality and i enjoy that.
it seems like chin hoe and the ocs ppl are all quite fit.. hmm, wonder if i can make it in there. haha
it's really quite funny sometimes, how our seniors from OCS tell us that OCS very easy for commandos, but u hear chin hoe telling me how fit they are.. like quite shag. haha
maybe i'm too slack. :P
the stories make infantry sound much tougher than commando. haha
weird.
but oh wells, these things, i have to go experience it den i can come up with an answer. haha
den i can tell u all if commandos really more slack or infantry more slack. haha
of cos, now i'll say commandos more tough lar. or else don't make sense rite. haha. in fact, i think i'll say that in future after i cross over too. HAHA. :P
enough of ns, shitty topic. i rather just serve finish and go study. haha i miss schooling!
oh, tml i could be doing my first airborne jump. was supposed to do it last friday but due to bad weather, it was cancelled. it's kinda scary but exciting at the same time. haha. woot!

it has been nice meeting the 65 ppl.. damn funny, we're not the only ones who have the class birthday idea. read other ppl's blogs, they all have the same idea. and like S6 all celebrate in june. haha. wonder 6A, 6B, 6C celebrate on what days. haha. 60 too.
today's outing was ok.. nice to see chin hoe lar. haha. he always MIA one.. so quite good that he took time off lijing to meet us. haha. next week again? this time adeline say she can come also.. is it the first time she's joining our clique outing? hope next week attendance better.. but celest still in japan... that toot.. last week say going nippon, den really one week later fly off. crazy. but like kiet says.. maybe she already plan long ago den secretive.. den last min tell us.. stop being so secretive girl!

been hearing some interesting stuff and rumours abt ppl.. like relationships and stuff.. guess NS is really a tough obstacle.. plus the girl going uni too.. but guys, do keep ur morale high and chins up. don't let all the sad stories affect ur relationships, cos at the same time, there have also been so many success stories! have faith in each other and love one another! love can overcome all obstacles! haha. :) cherish each other.
dear, i love you! :)

hmm, found back my blogging ways. haha. my last entry was shit. felt so weird when i was typing.. like nothing to say, dunno how to say etc.. vocab and grammar so wrong. really let ms lim down. haha. esp after that shitty b4. :(

oh wells, peeps, dudes, (haha) do blog and keep us updated on ur progress k?
i think it's nice that our friendship can go quite a distance. :)
that's all folks! will be back soon once i have stuff to write. :)

2006-06-04T13:48:00.000+08:00

heys.. i'm back after such a long time..
haha, reasons to be kept unknown. :)
well, it's time for us to meet up le!
apparently, like celest said, next sat would be great. :)
i haven't blogged in quite a bit. sort of lost touch le, feels a little weird. haha
well, guess u all know, smu rejected me. a little upset. but oh wells, guess i can't complain too much since my grades are like ok ok only...
so, those who are going to nus.. see ya in 2 years. haha
i spent the last 3 weeks in ROC (taiwan) training.
hard to really say what i've done.
argh, this sucks. dunno how to blog anymore. haha
shall try again soon. :)
see ya guys next sat. haha

2006-06-03T23:03:00.000+08:00

hey yongjun! obviously i knew dat 5 jun cld be a wkday, datz y i said previously dat we cld celebrate it on de wkend b4 de class day each yr... anw, today was quite fun lah...turnout wasnt fantastic, but at least de few of us enjoyed one another's company... juz hang out & relax... anw, letz keep nxt sat free! i've booked ade & yongjun so far... a few others haf also promised to keep nxt sat free! *yay* hope we can haf a nice get-together nxt sat den... ngee poo & tag were saying dat we cld haf a stayover at their place or smth... i'm not sure if i'll stay over, but even if i dun, i wld still go down for de gathering, & we cld juz do simple stuff like watch movies, play cards, chat, eat takeaway/delivered food, etc etc... so letz all make nxt sat a date! =P

2006-05-31T08:26:00.000+08:00

hello!! itz de sch hols! haha... so happy... can finally wake up late every morning... thought my relief teaching stint had come to an end, but rgp asked kiet & i to go back for another 1-2 wks in term 3... i think i'll go for at least 1 wk, de 2nd wk i'm not that sure... coz i might haf travel plans & wat-not... i dun realli mind going back in term 3 for dat 1 wk coz i'll get to see my students again! noe wat...last fri, quite a few of my students cried over my departure... it was realli unexpected... coz eileen (de hc gal from 04s64) & i organised dis class party for our p4 class... she's de form tcher of dat class, while i was their math tcher. i sorta treated dem as my form class coz i dun haf a form class but i teach dem math every day... i guess my students & i did get quite attached, so i was naturally affected when i saw dem crying... i was juz controlling my emotions at first coz i din wanna cry in front of dem in case it made dem feel even worse... i comforted dem & assured dem dat we cld still keep in contact thru email, msn or even snail mail... so dey sorta cooled down, & i returned to de staff rm... went to the toilet coz i cldnt hold my tears back... juz teared inside for a while, washed my face & went back to my desk. but after a while, a student came to look for me again, telling me dat a few of dem were still crying veri hard downstairs... so i hurried down & went to talk to dem again... sigh... i felt realli bad lah... dey kept saying stuff like "ms lee, pls dun go... i beg u... i promise to study veri hard..." or "ms lee, why must u go? can u not study?" "mss lee, y didnt u study earlier so dat u can work alredi?", etc etc. but eventually, dey juz got me to promise dat i wld go back rgp to visit dem as often as i can... dey requested for once every mth, but i said dat'd be quite impossible & i suggested once a term, but dey were unsatisfied, so i said once every 2 mths, & dey finally relented, but specified dat i must go back on tcher's day & children's day... hmm... i was juz thinking, tcher's day, if i go back hc, think i shud b able to drop by rgp as well lor. but as for children's day, i guess itz juz coz dey want gifts from me! haha... anw, i din tell dem abt my return in term 3, in case i end up not going back due to some unforeseen circumstances... i realli dun wanna disappoint dem again... itz realli another reason y i'm slightly hesitant abt going back for dat 1 or 2 wks in term 3... i wld hafta repeat de whole depressing farewell process all over again... well, kiet's hesitant abt going back in term 3 coz of her piano exam in aug... oh yah, speaking of kiet, she's damn fast... alredi off to paris & switzerland wif her family... so lucky rite!!! haha... hope she gets us more chocs & stuff! she promised me a piece of the alps though... hmm... =P

anw, my tuition juz ended yest... so i'm gonna be so so free from now on! haha... wait, or so i thought... juz remembered abt dis comp dat sembcorp wants us to take part in... itz an online game simulating real-life business management... i think itz similar to wat we heard abt in sch last yr, where teams compete wif one another online at certain times over a stretch of 10 days or so... apparently, quite a few of de other scholars are feeling quite frustrated over dis... coz we've alredi been busy wif the preparation for the scholarship ceremony, where we hafta present an item of some sort... not juz take turns to perform by singing/dancing or watever, but we hafta present smth dat ties in nicely wif de theme of the ceremony, & at de same time showcases our individual strengths & personality, not forgetting the significance of us being able to work as a team... apart from the item, we've also had to do many other miscellaneous stuff in preparation for the ceremony. personally, i dun mind de competition... in fact, i think itz gonna be quite a cool experience coz itz after all an online game where we get to learn more abt how to manage an enterprise... but for the others, i guess their frustration stems frm the fact dat dey're veri bz & dun wish to commit so much time to the comp... letz hope we can work things out & try our best for de comp... =)

oh yah, i still dunno whether i'm going to nus or ntu... waiting for the result of my appeal wif ntu, wch will supposedly be released after 16 june. in de meantime, nus offered me a double degree in engine & business admin, wch i'm supposed to reply to by 5 june... after calling ntu to ask dem for advice abt the situation i'm facing, de person i spoke to at the admin office said dat i could juz accept nus' offer first, & if my ntu appeal's successful, i can then reject nus' offer... so i asked if i wld end up hving to pay de tuition fees for nus by doing dis, and he said i wldnt haf to, unless de sch term has alredi started... but i'm thinking, perhaps i shud juz appeal wif nus for a single degree prog instead... doing a double degree is a bit too taxing... i'm too cmi for smth as challenging as dat... guess i'd rather get a gd 1st degree than 2 lousy degrees...

kiet's accepted accountancy alredi, while ade's waiting for her appeal wif ntu business sch... she's trying for business admin, but if she doesnt get it, *touch wood* she wld stick to wat she was offered... environmental engineering in ntu...

oh yah, chin hoe... y was it dat u said "gd luck to u girls in uni lar...hopefully u all will b attached lar...hor celestine?" hmm... y must specify me ah... haha... anw, letz meet dis sat! coz itz de sat b4 5 june...previously, we were debating over setting 5 june or 6 may as our class day rite? since 6 may is over, we'll hafta use 5 june! haha... shall we go somewhere to hang out like wat we did at fish & co de other time! juz a simple meal at a nice place where we can sit & chat... dun hafta do a lot of other stuff or wat... u guyz haf any suggestions? how abt yuki yaki? wif de diy ice-cream & all on a wkend, it costs $21.90... but alternatively, we cld go marina... haha... cheap, fun & more than enuf for de guyz to feast! haha... =P

2006-05-25T15:53:00.000+08:00

SUPPLIES!!=)

heh...its been a long time since i last came online...now at my brothers house using his com...haha..n its super song to b out here when everyone else is in camp...heh...got to book out for sum e-learning ting...heh..=)...

sorry to celest..heh...paiseh hor...din give u a definite ans when u asked me to meet the other day..hmm..nxt time lor...yeah..will try my 110% to make it de..i promise..;)...

hmm...its been a long time since we had n outing...hmm..really wonder how everyone is doing...well..actually e only person i haven seen for a long time is yong jun...hah..wonder if red beret has made him a faster runner...heh...well..i know kiet was quite bu shuang w yj...but then i oso cannot find that entry yj wrote...heh..but in e past then suan le lor....yeah...oso cannot blame yj ma...cos red beret is not easy to get de..yeah...b commando officer ba..heh..then i ask SAFTI to diam n i salute u...heh..=)...

hmm...actually quite looking forward to ns now...cos going to end service term le...then c get posted to where lor...yeah...hmm..left a few more wks in SAFTI..hmm..quite sian lar..muz make new frens again...dunno make how many times le...hmm...juz hope nice ppl will b around...=)...oh yah...yj our batch is guards intake leh...heh...khaki beret oso not bad ma...=)...hmm...

hmm...s for e girls...heh...e other day tink u all oso sian diao...cos e guys keep talking bout ns...heh...tink its natural lar...cos thats e only ting that we do everyday lor...yeah...nxt time meet much earlier lor..then when we talk finish bout ns then can talk bout other tings le...heh...mayb can go yakun at like 10am..then sit until 3 plus 4....heh..like last time liddat..=)...hmm...gd luck to u girls in uni lar...hopefully u all will b attached lar...hor celestine?heh...

hmm...all e guys do take care in army...dun accidentally break sth n get ooc lar..yeah..muz defy e logic of shag cannot tink...heh...=)...hope to c everyone soon...yup..take care ppl...=)....

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2006-05-12T01:23:00.000+08:00

yoyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyo.... im blogging here again finally.. kiet dun fret this sat theres a class gathering.. hopefully theres a good attendance... not expecting full attendance but 10 ppl enuf for me alr.. and about the people passing by thing please read back my past blog entries about the play analogy..hahaha...

well uni is starting rather soon for the girls out there... new chapter alr.. new frens new interests blossom new style of jokes new way of life... good luck.. if i can find lameshit frens in my section then you ppl can confirm find lameshits out there in those uni ppl...

my section mates really rather alike to our lameness loh. like theres a command "daran buka barisan" (sp.?) but since the buka sounds like book out so everytime we "daran bookout-at- 2010-later-and-go-home-and-bathe-then-chiong-out-to-town-and-eat-carls-jr barisan".....hahaha got much longer story but shall save time and space here...

got a lot more examples la... like during field camp we ask 1 person tired not, he say of course. then we say want bu bu shen with lingzhi not, he say where the hell got ling zhi. " my gugu there la, after4 days grow mushroom alr".........

taking Men's Health and FHM and saying "loaded magazine check"............

anw after joining army i feel i become more and more dilemma-tic alr. knn. start to think about all my past and noticing all the if-onlys and should-haves and filling myself full of regret. start to think whether my next decision is the right one. and most of the time such wonderings lead to wonderings about what i exactly want in life. sounds damn dramatic but really loh. maybe im thinking too much and turning and whirling *ahem* into an emo like someone *ahem* ... but seriously sometimes i just cant sleep because of this... maybe im showing signs of depression.. must use expansionist monetary policy to improve....AHHHH

2006-05-07T23:38:00.000+08:00

I was just reading germaine's blog and a part of it inspired this entry..there was this part from her post that said that our close friends ultimately come from secondary school..and in jc, we were close to our friends there only coz of the proximity and i guess, consequently, the convenience of everything..

Personally, i think it is quite true to some extent..coz we only spent like what..less than two years together..as compared to the four years or even ten years that we had spent with our sec school friends..and also, the end of jc is a crossroad for all of us where we all go our separate ways to study overseas or local and different unis and courses..and its not unbelievable to say that it is very easy to lose touch with friends we have made in jc..i mean, seriously man, how many of us still sms each other as often as we did in jc..now, im still quite close to celest and ade coz we're working together and i see them almost everyday..im pretty sure that when i quit..the times that we actually spend talking online will lessen..in fact, now, i dont even talk to celest over the phone much..

is it due to the weak foundation our friendship has been built on?i mean without our jc friends, we know we can always fall back on our sec school friends and girlfriend/boyfriend..so maybe jc friends arent as important? or probably another friendship just creates added burden, obligation and commitment which we are so tired to face and simply avoid it... hmm i really dont know..

but i guess i am glad just for the fact that i have met all the wonderful pple i had come across in jc...be it significant or insignicant, you guys have definitely left a mark in my heart..and hopefully, time wont wash that mark away..=)

2006-05-03T22:31:00.000+08:00

sigh..so hard to meet up..i really wonder when we would be able to get a clique outing with full attendance..
ok i think i take that back..i wonder when we are even gonna have a clique outing..haha i think we are just this close to declaring this little clique of ours over..but at least celest tried organising..must give her some credit for it..coz she kinda got the ball rolling..so i guess the ball got rolled back to her..coz the plan kinda fell through with yongjun and samuel not replying poor celest..haha..
now with another person attached i think its gonna be harder to plan outings..and sometimes, we also kinda paiseh to ask you all out coz we dont really wana force things on you all and make u feel obliged to spend time with us, coz i know ur bookout time can be spent with that special someone..hmm...im starting to blabber..must be tiring reading this stupid post coz i hardly paragraph though i always tell my students to do so...
but anyways, hope we get to meet up soon, coz i really miss those talking cock sessions, kbox-ing time, etc..yep..thats all i have for now..oh tmr im going on an excursion to the science centre with my class...damn excited!!!hehe...kk cheeers!!!

2006-05-01T11:24:00.000+08:00

hmm...i tried lor... wanted to meet up today, but didnt receive any replies from yongjun & samuel since sat... chin hoe probably had some other plans too, so he juz told us to go ahead & arrange, den he'll see if he can make it... sigh... kiet & i specially kept sun & mon free to see wch wld be a better & more convenient day for de guyz coz we figured dat book-out time is indeed precious to them, & dey wld undoubtedly need some family time or gatherings wif other grps of frenz... but well, like wat kiet said... at least we tried... perhaps we'll haf better luck next time... all of us wif different schedules & different priorities...

updates from me... =)

2006-04-25T22:37:00.000+08:00

okie...here's a normal & new post, contributed by me once again...

itz been quite a while since de 2nd batch of ns guyz got enlisted... i wonder how samuel's getting on... haha... has he been reduced to skin & bones or has he bulked up into brawn & muscles? hahaha... i guess itz been tough for us to meet up...coz everyone's got different schedules & stuff... how's labour day? haha... de ns pple shud be able to book out since itz a public holiday rite? but not sure if u guyz will wanna spend dat time lazing ard at home or go out with some other frenz...

well, juz to update u guyz... i'm taking up sembcorp's scholarship... yep... though i put accountancy at ntu as my 1st choice, & somehow, got offered dis double specialisation thingy, i wun be taking accountancy in de end... i'll be appealing for electrical & electronic engineering instead... but de thing is i actualli put EEE as my 2nd choice... so it'll be quite weird to de pple processing my appeal, coz i'm appealing to get into my 2nd choice when i was offered my 1st choice. hahaha... & well, in case u're confused how i got de sembcorp scholarship coz i nv realli mentioned it to u guyz... apparently, i went for 2 rounds of interviews, a tea session, iq tests, personality test, essay test, & a final round of interview wif de chairman, pres/ceos of de sembcorp business units & directors... i was juz informed abt de confirmation of my scholarship yest... so i'll soon hafta get down to signing the contract, bond & stuff... oh, forgot to specify...itz a local scholarship... so dun worry, u guyz will still get to see me... gd or bad thing, i dunno... hahaha... oh well, sembcorp actualli hinted quite obviously to de few of us dat dey wld be more keen on awarding local scholarships dis yr coz de demand of de industry didnt quite require overseas scholars, apart from financial reasons as well as de fact dat there haf been past scholars who broke their bonds after going overseas... so i guess itz probably a case of once bitten twice shy...

oh yah, previously, another reason y i was keen to get into accountancy was coz kiet, shan & quite a few of my other frenz wld be taking accountancy as well... so i figured dat it wld be quite cool if we cld still mug together & hang out together... but now dat i'll most prob be doing EEE instead, i guess we wld be mugging different stuff though we cld still haf mugging sessions together...? haha... oh, but de fortunate thing is dat de sch of EEE & nanyang biz sch are veri close to each other... kiet & i are thinking of sharing a rm in de ntu hall, so no matter where our hall's located, we shud take ard de same time to travel to our respective schs... initially, i thot we cld get to choose a hall nearer to de particular sch/fac dat we'll be studying at... but apparently, de allocation of hall isnt exactly within our control, so even if u & ur fren are taking difference courses at schs wch are far from each other, u all cld still share rooms, juz hafta specify de matric card no of ur rm-mate to de ntu pple when u get down to applying to stay at de hall...

okie...enuf updates from me... a veri long entry indeed... hope u guyz will keep de blogging going too... =)

2006-04-17T14:50:00.000+08:00

hey, dun sound so serious leh... veri scary... anw, juz wanna say dat i'm actualli glad dat u made dat post... coz at least it sorta provoked more blogging activities from de rest of us, otherwise our blog wld seriously be damn stagnant... gd dat u figured dat ur phrasing wasnt quite right even though u din actualli mean to insult de ocs pple... dun worry too much abt it k! yep... =)

2006-04-16T12:51:00.000+08:00

well. this time i would agree with kiet and celest.
i have no good or rather, no explanation at all of why i would write such an entry.
i actually overlooked the fact that what i wrote was totally insensitive and at the same time, reflected what a scum i am.
know i have no right, no ability to even despise or disrespect anyone.
and i actually failed to realised that so many of my good frens are actually in OCS.
i take back my words and eat my best sunday hat.

i'm sorry.

2006-04-15T22:03:00.000+08:00

hmm... seems like kiet was really bu shuang wif wat yongjun said... i'm not as provoked, but still, when i read yongjun's post, i was also quite ............... all the "pride, honour and glory of wearing a red beret" seemed more like de arrogance of wearing one... in de 1st place, correct me if i'm wrong, commandos are chosen in some obscure manner...we hardly even noe whether itz quite random... on de other hand, de non-commando pple hafta prove themselves during bmt & stuff in order to be selected into ocs... i think dis simply goes to show dat dey've been put to de test & haf out-performed many others in various aspects... guess commando trainings could be much more rigorous physically, but like wat u said, pple in ocs probably learn more planning based stuff than u do, & i really wonder if dey'll end up being de ones to lead u & gif orders for u to follow in times of war, while u just hafta listen & fight, doing all de physical stuff dat u've been trained to do... anw, itz realli weird dat u wrote all dat chunk of stuff rite after making a pretty pointless disclaimer abt it being of no offence to de pple in ocs... i'm sure lah... hahaha...

anw, before u think dis entire post is juz to kb u... let me juz go on to congratulate u on being wif clara finally... i guess de amount of time, money & feelings dat u've invested into this relationship has paid off at long last... gd luck! =)

2006-04-15T19:23:00.000+08:00

ok...im only blogging coz i really cant stand your arrogance mr yongjun..if i were talking to you, i would definitely debate and argue with you like mad...
As much as you think that commando training is much tougher than that in OCS and what not, you shouldnt put down nor belittle the training they go through. They may not be going through as tough a time as they used to in the past, but has it occurred to you that commando training arent as xiong as they used to be too? personally, from what you have said, i have no respect for those in commando coz apparently, they cant carry themselves as well as the officers. There must have been reasons which allowed them to be chosen from out of so many to be trained as leaders to lead people like you. I dont see why they dont deserve your respect. You know what maybe they dont even want your respect. So effectively, it doesnt really matter.
But, whatever it is, the last entry is seriously too demeaning for my liking. seriously, i think everyone deserves his share of respect from others..no reason why you should put down what they're going through just like that. And besides, if you really think about it, you're really not that much better than them. if this is what you have learnt in army, then im really sad for you..so much for all that mental development talk shit

2006-03-26T12:15:00.000+08:00

heys!
out again. haha. thankfully.
did a 24hr guard duty from sat morning till sunday morning. damn sad when u see other ppl booking out and u're still stuck in camp.. but well, the sergeant on duty was really fun and nice. haha. played carom with us and talk alot of crap, den allow us to order pizza in and stuff.. but carom was tiring cos whoever scores, the rest has to do pushups. haha. carom has never been so tired...
why is it that no one's blogging? why?
u all very busy ah?
oh wells. i hope to see u guys soon k!
take care!

2006-03-18T15:06:00.000+08:00

hey hey! looks who's back.. haha
well, it's nice to know that u guys are still keeping this blog going.. really sorry i haven't been blogging in a while.. esp when i'm the one who asked u all to blog. haha.
well, army has been fun so far, until last week. haha.
seriously, f*cked up... me and my bmt platoon mates just started to get along REALLY well, we started to do stupid stuff together, get tekan-ed, have fun doing push-ups, den now vocational training all gotta split up again.
well, at first i was rather happy to be in leader's course.. den i suddenly lost all motivation. seriously, life becomes damn bad when that happens. the last week felt longer than a month...
gotta start to get to know ppl again.. which is quite ok for me lar, cos my bunk mates are rather fun and cock too. haha. den training intensity really up damn alot suddenly. freak.
it's like bmt training multiplied by 2 or something... what the hell happened to "progressive training" ???
pt now so freaking xiong lar.. every morning run at least 5km or so. bah.
and worst thing is, now is not the official start of leaders course yet... it's still X-training among all the vocations... which means when leaders course really start, there'll be another jump in pt. bah.
oh wells, guys, really sorry i couldn't make it for the class dinner.. shall try to have another one next time can? haha.. once i get my red beret, life should be easier and should be no prob meeting up more often with u guys. :) can always come changi point to find me. hahaha
anyway, how's the posting for those bmtc guys? i expect at least half of u all to go to OCS, and half to go to SISPEC.. better not have any of those shits chao keng go become clerk or driver hor.. knn.. damn unfair if my ns life so tough and u all slack thru it...

anyway, have u guys heard of the phrase or quote :" you don't love her cause she's pretty, she's pretty cause you love her" ?
that day i realised that it makes alot of sense. haha.
look at it this way, why is it that some girls/guys appeal to some people and not to others?
(e.g i don't really think of lijing as pretty but chin hoe does. *no offence k* )
as in like, precisely because u like this certain face, that's why she's pretty to you. get it? haha. this quote has nothing to do with character at all!
perhaps when u like her even more, and get to know her character even more, u'll like her more den she becomes more pretty, den it applies.
but based on first impression.. this quote makes alot of sense.
u will find a specific girl pretty because u like her face, that's where the "like" comes in.. haha
ok, i find it hard to explain myself here. no wonder i got such crappy grades for GP. haha.
oh wells. hope i see u guys in university k? haha. do pray for me.
pray SMU leaves a slot for me in psychology or i'll just have to retake A levels or perhaps take SAT... haha. or i can just sign on. freak. no way.
ok, end of story. lame crappy day. but i'm mad cos i get to book out. haha
i don't think any of u would understand. haha.

2006-03-16T10:47:00.000+08:00

heyz! i had a great time last sat too... it was my first time at de glass house fish & co... indeed, i found de ambience pretty comfortable... wif de music & all... minus de st nicks gals sitting behind us... de whole bunch of dem was creating such a din lor... rather attention-seeking in my opinion... well, de pple on my side of de table were also starving coz we waited damn long for our food... but dat aside, de food looked realli gd when it finally came... haha... it wasnt bcoz we were juz too hungry, though we were, but de colour of de food was realli appealing...like de prawns were of a nice red, de mussels, squid & fish looked appetising & all... haha... getting hungry now... but well, it wasnt so much de dinner dat i enjoyed lah... it was more of de session we had at lanson place... hope i din rmb de name wrongly... it was veri breezy dat nite... realli quite a romantic place, if not for our intrusion... haha... anw, it was great fun knowing abt other pple's secrets... those juicy gossip... haha... but somehow, i became de target of everyone's interrogation!!! hm... u all simply wldnt take no for an ans rite... wanna dig up my secrets also must haf technique one... come & ask me lor, if i'm in a gd mood, will reveal a bit... hahahahaha...

but well, all in all, dat gathering also brought back lotza memories...i felt it was truly a successful outing... de attendance was superb, 20/26 pple went... though slightly disappointing dat 2 impt guyz din go... hm... juz hope we haf other opportunities to meet before we get caught up in our own lives & gradually lose touch wif one another... must realli treasure de fond memories we've had as classmates, as frenz, as a clique... =)

2006-03-15T22:10:00.000+08:00

hey pals!

this blog is officially stagnant! but no worries, here i am to liven things up a bit..just a little, coz i really dont have much to say. well well, i guess class dinner was quite good on saturday..and the attendance was surprisingly good. it was really fun to catch up with the rest of the class..haha though i suggested the class reunion, i didnt get down to doing it..in the end kaihong got the ball rolling..THANKS KAIHONG!i owe u major..well at least i initiated something right??so i get some credit..haha..though we didnt do much, just sat around and talked, it was really special..heard secrets about charmaine and all..someone whom i dont really talk to in school..but crapped with alot..yeah..
gossiped a bit...lame around a bit..almost felt like we were in school..sigh really wish we were back in jc..didnt have to worry about the future and stuff...but i guess we will all be forced to grow up at some point and we cant just hang on to the past..time to move on! but never forget those who have help forged all those unforgetable memories..yepyep!

have lotsa fun pple! cheers!

tnid5d5d5d5d5d5d5d5d5

2006-03-01T21:33:00.000+08:00

yo ppl so we have gotten our results after all...i know a lot of ppl in the class damn not satisfied with the results but really theres nothing u can change loh... u might not get the prestigious scholarship or pro course you really want, but a broken dream is just that, broken alr... u will b cutting yourself if u try to piece back and keep on thinking about whatifs and ifonlys...so why not choose other courses and walk your own path. as long got interest can alr. wads the pt of getting a really promising and prospective path when its upkeep--effort, stress, opportunity cost, and the need to study something u might not really really like--is not really worth it after all.

hahaha sounds pro. maybe its is HAHAHHAAA

2006-02-24T17:41:00.000+08:00

hey! results will be out on wed... excited??? haha... this sux big-time man... realli cant help but worry abt it... i really hope all of us will get fabulous results, allowing us to get into whichever course we wanna take in whichever uni we wanna enter, & aim for whichever scholarships we wish to apply... if dreams do come true, i hope this will be de 1st to come true...

watever lies ahead of us, letz juz accept de truth & always look on de bright side of life! perhaps we cld plan a get-together this wkend or nxt mon or tues... hahaha...

yumlfyuldf67d

2006-02-18T14:59:00.000+08:00

yo ppl its me blogging here... haha.. well ydy went for dramafeste...tho i nvr really liked it but still go loh... as usual Aries (arts wad) owns the world... the play full of sexual references la... some freaking obvious la... hahaa but i must admit the script was really pretty well written.. apollo one oso not bad... the other 2 are rather fei. too fei to worth no mention from me.

and oh, xue hui was like the director for the entire dramafeste. haha yup just saying.

yeay later gg to watch breaking comp... near my house loh.. damn shuang... wear specs wear slippers da bao kopi go there qiao jiao and watch la hahahaaaa

2006-02-12T19:57:00.000+08:00

heyz! thanx for de cake today! it was pretty gd... =) ding tai feng was quite nice too... much better than de one i tried at j8 previously... anyway, juz glad to be able to sit down & haf a nice meal together...hvent seen yongjun in quite a long while & indeed, he's realli down from a M size to a XS size... haha... poor him, got a sore throat too... i guess all de guyz in ns hafta strain their voices day in & day out coz of de shouting, singing & wat-not... take gd care of urselves ah... drink more herbal tea or watever... kiet & i also hafta take care of our voices coz of all de lessons we haf at sch... my throat's more or less conditioned for de daily session of teaching & shouting already... haha... jk lah, i dun realli shout at my students actualli, kiet's probably de one who needs to do dat more often... haha... she's realli hving trouble managing her pri3 form class, seems like de class has quite a lot of disciplinary probs...

anyway, shan's back again! =) but she's not staying at my place, at hy's place instead... kiet & i are meeting her for lunch tmr... if any of u guyz haf lobangs for de rental of rms, must let shan or i noe... coz shan wants to rent a place asap so she doesnt hafta trouble hy's family...

oh yah, jun juz said dat a level results wun b out nxt wk... apparently, his officers called moe to check it out coz their platoon will b on field camp nxt wk... den moe told dem dat it'll be in de 1st wk of march, so i guess we haf 2 more happy wks... *cross our fingers & hope for de best*

2006-02-05T18:26:00.000+08:00

heyz! i've finally got time to blog... past few times i came online, was busy settling other stuff, so din haf time to blog... veri little time to use de com dis days! arggh...my selfish bro... whole day mapling... wat a childish & spastic game... anw, went to speak to an insurance agent wif my dad today coz my dad's gonna buy me a new policy... realli quite interesting to find out how u can save up a small amt each mth & leave it to snowball to quite a considerable sum of money after a certain number of yrs... but we realli hafta hope dat de inflation rate will be low, otherwise de real value of the compound interest earned would diminish... i guess insurance policies are a gd form of savings & protection... & btw, selling insurance can b a gd source of income too... haha... dat insurance agent is definitely earning big bucks lah. but after speaking to him, i think he's got his priorities right...in de sense dat he hasnt lost a sense of direction in life... he has a clear understanding dat money is smth u shudnt blindly pursue, coz watz most impt in ur life shud be ur family & loved ones... i feel dat a lot of pple pursue wealth at de expense of their health when they're young... but when dey get older, dey attempt to regain health using their wealth but to no avail... so itz realli important to strike a balance in life... money is never urs until u use it...

anw, it was a nice coincidence to meet ngee poo, tag & some others when kiet & i went back to hc on wed... i went back for training, while kiet decided to drop by to visit de tchers... it so happened that nip & tag were also back to bai4 nian2 since dey booked out de previous day... so we had quite a nice catching up session... de guyz looked quite de same, ngee poo's body looked juz as muscular & bulked up as b4 but his cheekbones were definitely more obvious... tag's toned up quite a lot too... we were at de class bench when dey told us abt de water parade kinda thing where u all hafta go thru de hasslesome procedure... realli scary man... de way u all get tekan-ed for veri small & minor stuff... np was telling kiet & i abt how tag even mugged all de malay commands! hahaha... damn farnie... but itz quite a smart thing to do lah, avoid getting into trouble or making mistakes during foot drills or watsoever lor... oh yah, tag was also telling us abt de scary pilot selection test dat he went through... think yj took it too... de computerised test to check if u're gd at multi-tasking & also to test ur psycho-motor skills... realli demanding... no wonder dey say itz admn difficult to get through... haha...

well well, i guess our nxt clique gathering will be on 12 feb, sunday... but too bad chin cant join us... he'll be celebrating his vday in advance... but shan'll be back on 12 feb... we can receive her at 3:45pm at changi airport... she'll most prob be staying at my place for a wk or so, till she finds a place to stay... she's trying to rent a room ard bishan or amk area so dat it'll be convenient for her to travel to st nicks, where's she'll be doing relief teaching... her chem tcher there managed to help her get de job... but she'll hafta provide de sch wif free labour by doing volunteer teaching from 13 feb till her application for relief teaching, as well as her work permit, gets approved...

relief teaching has been getting better each day... coz i've gotten to noe my students better, & itz realli a fulfilling job... if u realli think abt it, maybe de $'s not that gd after all... coz if u include de time spent on marking, de hourly rate is not that high, but still considerably higher than most other temp jobs i suppose. de thing is even though de real hrly rate isnt dat high, at least de fact dat itz somewhat like a half-day job leaves a lot more flexibility & freedom coz u get to choose btw doing ur marking in sch or at home, or even to finish up de marking on de following day... even at de work station, itz also quite comfortable coz de staff rm's air conditioned & de chair's quite comfy too... furthermore, itz simply wonderful dat kiet's ard to accompany me now! haha... from classmates to colleagues... how cool can it get... realli fortunate dat rgp had de vacancy, so i cld recommend her in... hope she can survive long enuf though... coz u realli need to noe how to deal wif kids... she'll also be teaching quite a few subs... i shall pass on a few tips to her... & in de meantime, we've stocked up on veri nice stickers for our students!!! we went popular to buy de stickers, some stamps wch say 'excellent', 'well done' or 'try ur best'... we also bought some small items to gif de students as prizes for tests or watever... just yest, i bought 4 huge pkts of marshmallows from mini toons to give my students... huge investment man... but i enjoy giving dem stuff if dey deserve it... or juz as a form of encouragement lor... coz we cant keep giving all de smart kids if dey're de ones who keep getting de highest marks for tests or watever... need to spur on de weaker students too... juz gif dem some small rewards when dey show improvements in their work, den dey'll be more motivated to try harder de nxt time instead of feeling demoralised dat dey nv get a chance in winning any prize...

okok...enuf said... a super duper long entry... hope u all hvent fallen asleep from reading it... haha... take care!

2006-02-01T20:35:00.000+08:00

hey guys...im back to give a really short entry..coz you all say i never blog..but anyhow, i really wana tell my parents how much i love them but it's too mushy to get it out of myself..it's not like they gonna read this..but i just think im really really lucky just to be their child..
you all probably dont really know about my family problems..well not like problems with my immediate family..but with my uncle and grandma and stuff..but after i've grown up and my dad tells me more stuff now, i just feel that im extremely fortunate to have been born to such great parents..those that wont leave or abandon you without leaving a single cent of alimony whatsoever..i really despise those pple..i mean if your marriage doesnt work out, at least fulfil your freaking obligation to both your wife and child right?!u cant just leave them to die..and hello he's like ur flesh and blood kan..ergh ok im getting a bit carried away...but yeah..enough of all these crap..
anyways, on a happier note, i realise im really not that fierce. in fact, i not fierce at all lah..today did a day of casual relief and got bullied like mad by the idiotic p5s...and i cant be firm and fierce to them..so they like climb all over you..not literally..but yeah..so i guess the teaching industry wont be getting me as one of their labourers..still have to wake up early..but relief teaching is seriously good money!!haha ok...
i have nothing much to say already...army guys, i wish you all well..hope you are tahaning everything..met yj, and he lost a visible amount of weight..cant imagine chin hoe...and sam man..like when he goes in, i bet he'll disappear into thin air..so guys..i know the food tastes really bad in there...according to tag nip and yj..but just eat k...dont come out skin and bones yeah???
ok i shall end here...ill try to blog as much as possible..but blogging is erm...i dont know leh..i very lazy...=)yeah take care alright?byebye!

2006-01-31T17:49:00.000+08:00

ok. this is probably the last entry i can make before i book in again. haha
guys, we need a clique outing. haha. apparently, kiet mei loy is having clique withdrawal symptoms.
well.. i have no idea what i wanna say.
i've got a question to ask those enlisted already.
do u all feel different?
i feel damn differently. i feel so much more grown up. i don't mean like on the outside, cos my face is still damn boyish and this short hair makes me look more like a primary school kid.
i mean like mentality. i feel like i have more responsiblities, to my family, to myself. i suddenly feel the urgency to grow up. and like i'm not sure how to say but i think i feel very different.
i'm not sure how to put it in words too. but like now, i don't really dare to tell people how i feel and stuff, cos i've become more aware of the repercussions? something like that, i'm not too sure too.
but u just think alot more. haha. but in camp, i'm alot more reserved, still looking around, testing waters, see what type of ppl my platoon mates are etc.. so i guess i spend all the quiet times thinking alot of crap. haha.
maybe this sat when i book out again i'll be able to pen down more of what i mean and feel now. haha. but seriously, i feel like i've grown up, or at least i feel the need to grow up overnight.

2006-01-29T23:15:00.000+08:00

ok, so blogging frenzy begins again. haha. i'm back.
i'm clearly enjoying the 4 days break from pasir ris camp, no more 6am trainings, no more PTs, no more stand by bed, nothing! just my home sweet home! my pillow that smells of me, my comfy bed that envelops my body perfectly!
well, kaihong, it's normal for u to have such thoughts. u're deeply in love with germaine, and i have so much confidence in ur relationship, so i can understand why u have family thoughts etc. but i'm still single and i've never really been in a relationship, so i'm kinda jumping the order. haha. and sam, of cos u can have children without getting married. adopt a child! there are so many pitiful kids out there that can do with some fatherly love. :)
i've got so many emotions running through me. but i decided perhaps not too appropriate to write them down here. times like this, i really wonder, who i can share all these emotions and feelings. is it time for me to get a traditional diary? haha. diaries could probably the best invention ever, man's true best friend. dogs probably discuss their masters problems at the gates to their neighbours, just that we don't understand their language. haha.
i might blog again soon when i have new thoughts. haha. stay the same guys. :)

2006-01-28T21:12:00.000+08:00

haha. blogger is back. finally, can blog after so long. glad to see chin hoe blogging. haha. that MIA god is actually blogging more than kiet!
well, today's cny eve and there's really nothing much to do. haha. so decided to come on and blog, besides, this is supposed to be our group blog (but mostly i've been blogging, and of course, kudos to celest for trying so hard to keep it going. :D )
i can only say, so far, commando training has been some parts tough, some parts slack. but i haven't really felt like i've been pushed to my limits where i feel totally shag and i just wanna die or something. haha. i thought i would feel that way before i entered the army, but apparently, now the SAF is heading towards a 3G (3rd Generation) army, so they're training more of thinking soldiers. haha. physical aspects, of course, we'll still be fit, but maybe the tekan and stuff not that xiong anymore. but sad to say, my IPPT has been shit. haha. i can't even take pride in my pull ups cos it's not even an A. haha. crap to the max. oh, i forgot sit-ups. haha. that 5 pts, whoever don't get it, can seriously go eat shit. it's just a waste of 1 min. i guess i can't really talk too much about the army, besides, no one would understand. haha. but it's still not that tough. :D
today's cny eve and times like this, i really wonder when i'll get married and stuff. haha. it's like thoughts of settling down, and family comes into my mind. of course, i enjoy my current situation, with my brother, mother and all. but i really wonder what happens in the future. haha. would my family be as closely knitted? and happy and comfy and all...
i do so want kids of my own! haha. i can't believe i actually have the images of me coming back from work and seeing two children of mine with cute innocent smiles on their faces, i can imagine myself feeling so happy. HAHA. i'm going mad.
well, was at my gran's place for reunion dinner. or rather, more of just a little dinner. haha. cos i'm not that close with my father's side relatives but still, haha. it was a reunion dinner.
on the way to and fro, i went past many familiar places. these places brought back fond memories, memories i can gurantee will stay in my heart for years to come, memories that are so vivid, so beautiful that they can make me smile and look like an idiot to my parents as i smile, looking out of the window.
however, at the same time, i realised that they are only memories, and i pondered on the thought of whether these memories can ever become reality once more. whether i can enjoy those happy times again. as much as i can remain hopeful, there will always remain this part of me that is hovering along the lines of being pessimistic and realistic. this part of me acts like lead shoes, keeping my two feet on the ground, preventing from getting my hopes high. i wonder if this is good. of course, it prevents me from getting too hurt, for i've already once cried my eyes out. but then at the same time, it stops me from going further, pushing myself harder, trying to make my dreams come true again. but well, that's not gonna stop me from trying! haha. i will do all i can, try my best to make my dreams come true. haha. but of cos, i understand that you can't always have what u want and sometimes dreams do change over the years, as one matures and develops. :)
haha, i have no idea what i'm talking about.
anyway, happy chinese new year guys! take care hope to see u all soon!

2006-01-28T08:22:00.000+08:00

muahahaha..i m back!!heh..hmm...cny is so shuang lor...can stay out of camp for so many days..hmm...me goin back in on tues nite..yeah..hmm..so is hongyi..heh...we in e same company lor....but diff platoon...so sad..hmm...

army life is so sian lor....everyday do e same tings...n muz slp so early n wake up so early..hmm...but then juz like that lor..yeah...section mates haf been really nice...yeah..most from tj de...hmm...training still ok lar..yeah...but everyday do chin up...do until hand damn pain...cos got blisters...hah..but thats wad they do to change boys to man....haha....so like that lor...=)....

hmm..hope everyone is having a nice time...yeah...celest shld b fine lar...can teach n trick small kids...hmm...kiet shld b fine oso?she can b e small kid....hmm...sam shld b ok oso...can work for 13 hrs....hmm....haha...yj...r u dead?heh...commando leh...wonder how e training is like..hmm..shld b fine for him lar...yeah...heh...

really muz eat until i die during cny....cos after cny got a field camp...then they all say e combat rations taste like sh*t....haha...so enjoy all e gd food now..=)...new years eve today...everyone haf a fun n enjoyable new year!!!take care ppls..=)..oh yah...tink wun come online for quite long le...cos my internet connection is going to b cut tmr...=)...take care..got time will come here look c de...yup...all e best..oh...c u guys on 17/2...they say results released on this day...=)...take care..

2006-01-22T10:09:00.000+08:00

heyz all... de blog has been stagnant for quite a while, & though it was kinda expected, it was also slightly disappointing to noe... anw, how've u guyz been getting on in ns? u guyz as in chin & jun... sam's hving a nice time working coz of de neighbours rite...? haha... well, i've been teaching for more than 2 wks le... beginning to get de hang of it... managed to get to noe some veri nice & frenly tchers though there're also some slightly hostile ones... hope itz juz bcoz we're still on unfamiliar grounds... hopefully, things will get better in de time to come... oh yah, yongjun! u rmb de veri chio tcher of urs? haha... i think there's also dis sweet-looking tcher around who's nice & friendly too... i think she juz reminds me of her... haha...

in de meantime, i'm still hving some trouble preparing de lesson plans... apparently, i teach a total of 10 different classes 6 different subjects... & i hafta prepare lesson plans for each & every lesson i have on each & every day of de wk! *sob* i'm so gonna die... itz on a wkly basis...hafta submit it to my tcher mentor every tues... she's been realli nice & helpful, so i'm glad to haf her to show me de ropes...

oh yah... r de ns guyz booking out on fri or sat? i'm rather disappointed dat rgp will still be hving a full day of lessons on fri! dey onli haf an hr of celebrations, so all other lessons will be as per normal... wch means dat my dismissal will be at 1250, so i'm not sure if hc's celebrations will still be ongoing at dat time... but i sure dun mind dropping by to visit since itz juz opp anw... dis time round, hopefully, more of our class pple will be able to turn up... or else it'd be quite sad to see so few pple ard to celebrate... de atmosphere's juz so different when we're celebrating as a class altogether by our class bench or at de central plaza... den i recall de time we set up our ice-cream float & choc chip cookies stall at de inner plaza... haha... all de leftover ice-cream... we still had a ice-cream chiong-ing session after sch one day juz to clear de ice-cream... & i think it was a rather disgusting experience if u think abt it.. haha... but still, fond memories are here to stay... & i certainly take comfort in knowing that it happened, rather than itz over... =)

2006-01-09T21:59:00.000+08:00

welcome back guyz! haha... how's ns been? now that 2 out of 5 of de quintet are in ns, esp jun, i hope dis blog doesnt become my personal blog... must rmb his last words before leaving...asking kiet & i to keep dis blog going... so i shall remind myself to blog as often as possible, & hopefully kiet will contribute now & den!

well, i've been super busy these days...juz started on my rgps relief teaching officially today, though i did a day of casual relief last fri... everything's been lotza fun so far! most of de kids are quite lovable so long as dey dun get too rowdy... but dey're quite manageable, so i'm very enthusiastic abt dis job, wch will last till may/june... 2 long terms... oh yah, for last fri's casual relief, i took over various lessons...mostly english, 1 science, 1 social studies & 1 chinese! hahaha... de chinese one was especially memorable ok! juz b4 dat i had english/science lesson, so i had to switch to chinese mode rite after i stepped into de chinese class... den i juz wrote my name 'li lao shi' on e whiteboard & greeted de class 'tong xue men zao!' in a cheena accented way...& dey all answered 'li lao shi zao an' in de typical student-greet-teacher manner... it had been a veri veri long time since i last spoke such biao1 zhun3 hua2 yu3 & was forced to use onli simple chinese vocab to explain stuff... de chapt i taught dem was 'jing3 di3 zhi1 wa1', & one of de words to be learnt was 'zhi1'...u tell me how to explain???!!! so i juz told dem it was smth like 'de4' & gave dem egs of how dey were used in a way similar to 'de4'... den after 5 mins or so, when i had alredi moved on to other words, dis small gal ran up to me & asked,"lao shi, shen me shi 'de'?" den i was like momentarily stunned... partly coz she lagged damn long b4 asking me, & also bcoz i was stunned by de qn... so i juz replied, "bi3 ru2 wo3 de4 ma1 ma1, wo3 de4 lao3 shi1"... den she lagged for 3 secs den went 'orh', den scurried back to her chair... hahaha... cute rite... oh, on fri, coz i happened to haf some sweets...so used dem to 'pian4 xiao3 hai2'... & dey were damn effective! hahaha... u shud haf seen de sudden burst of energy & everyone was juz super enthu abt answering my qns or volunteering to read de passages...

oh yeah, mg called me when i was hving my break today... asked me if i was still interested in doing relief teaching wif dem, but i had to turn dem down coz i was alredi wif rgp... too bad lor... dey were juz slightly late... coz juz b4 dey called, i was actualli thinking... wld i still prefer to teach at a sec sch if there was a vacancy somewhere or wld i rather continue teaching in rgp... & i sorta decided dat i am rather contented wif teaching in rgp coz i luv kids...so itz realli quite fun to experience teaching dem... & well, of coz itz veri relaxed teaching in a pri sch... i end at 1250 every day, though i'll make sure i stay a little later to avoid giving pple de impression dat i leave on de dot, juz to clock 5 1/2 hrs for my day's pay... in future, i expect to hafta stay back on some days to mark de students' work & stuff too... but each day, i get a min. of 1 hr break, on thurs & fri, i get 2 hrs break in total... so my effective hrly pay is actualli quite high... watz more, rgp is rite opp hc... can go back often to train wif de juniors... how shuang... haha...

well, i guess de guyz must be making use of de little time dey haf to relax & rest well b4 dey book in again tmr nite... hope all de class guyz who've alredi enlisted can jiayou in ns & stay safe!

2006-01-05T21:35:00.000+08:00

so i guess this is where it all ends.
or rather, starts.
the point in time when all boys have to turn into men.
haha, tag's already in. and so is ngee poo the gay. i bet he's enjoying himself looking at all the other guys. haha
well, boys, when we see each other next time, we're probably half-men. HAHA or maybe 1/24 men. anyway, ns should be fun. it's the all-boys type of fun that most of us from chinese high and one of us (hongyi) from RI experienced before. the "bond" ppl, the stupid jokes etc etc. and all of you all are freaking fit, so i supposed the push-ups won't have much effect on you all. well, girls, we all know how important push-ups are to u. :P hahah
anyway, do take care of yourselves inside. just be street-smart and laxing and chiong for OCS. haha. good luck all.
and to celest and kiet, please keep this blog going k. haha
i would blog as often as i can. :) haha

to those who are attached, lovesick, or secretly in love with some girl outside. haha. GOOD LUCK. :)

tadaima! i'm back from nippon! =P

2005-12-26T02:08:00.000+08:00

heyz everyone! i'm back from japan! haha... had a great time there... already missing it though i've onli been back for a day or so... haha... so how did u guyz spend ur xmas? quite surprised dat u all din arrange to meet up or smth... i guess u guyz had ur indiv plans...

well, i juz arrived in s'pore at 545pm or so on sat evening, den left my luggage at home before going down to a junior's place for tkd bbq... haha... quite rushing & all... den stayed over summore. so i onli got home again sometime dis morning...

oh yah, did u guyz hear de news abt nagoya & some parts of japan snowing veri veri heavily in de past wk? especially nagoya... greatest level of snow in 40+ yrs! haha... it was amazing... i took de shinkansen (bullet train) from kyoto to nagoya, & along de way, we cld see de snow everywhere, realli amazing... oh, de weather was of coz damn cold in japan too... but i wore 4 layers of clothing, haha... so my body din feel cold, it was mainly my face & hands. but my face kinda got used to de coldness pretty soon, & initially, i wore gloves to keep my hands warm. but it was veri troublesome to keep taking them off coz it was difficult to hold or handle stuff while wearing gloves... so i juz chose a simpler & more convenient solution... wch was to stick my hands in my pockets... haha... so i had to throw lotza stuff into my backpack so i cld keep my hands empty... it was kinda tiring to wear all de bulky clothing & carry a bag filled wif lotza stuff, not onli mine, but also my parents'. haha... veri smart of dem to make full use of de bag i was carrying... haha...

mt fuji was de coldest of all... went up to de highest pt possible for de coach to drive up... it was freezing!!! each time de wind blew, i wld juz shiver uncontrollably... my face felt rock cold & my hands were juz trembling from de chill... i then understood how frozen meat felt like... wanted to take a few more pics up there, but it was realli far too cold... so we hurriedly took a few shots & went up de coach... but i managed to capture many nice shots of mt fuji in de background coz we stopped somewhere on de way to mt fuji from wch we cld get a nice view of de moutain... shall show u all de pics some other time... either after i upload or develop them...

oh yeah, wat i enjoyed most in the japan trip was of coz de jap food! haha... ate ramen, udon, soba, sushi, sashimi, tempura, okonomiyaki, takoyaki, yaki tori, daifuku, dango, etc etc... damn nice!!! haha... esp coz itz winter now, & de weather's so cold... we ate lotza ramen at various places... imagine a cold winter nite, & u get a hot, steaming bowl of ramen dat smells heavenly... seriously, wat more can one wish for... hahaha... but of coz, everything comes wif a price... & i obviously paid exorbitant prices for everything in japan... haha... juz a ramen cost abt $13... partly coz de yen appreciated during de period of time when my parents changed $... juz a bottle of drink from the vending machine cost abt $2.30, and a pack of seaweed (de kind wif 100 small packets) also cost me abt $14!! haha... ridiculous prices... initially, i was looking forward to de 100 yen shops, hoping to get some cheap snacks & small items... but i onli saw 1 or 2 100 yen shops in my entire trip on de 1st or 2nd day... so at dat time, we thot we wld see more of such 100 yen shops ard, especially in tokyo, so we din wanna buy too much in osaka... in de end, we din get to see anymore 100 yen shops, not that japan had few 100 yen shops, but juz dat de places we visited did not haf those shops nearby... *sigh* but well, we still grabbed some snacks from shops here & there despite the higher prices and all...

hmm, another thing that i enjoyed was the experience of conversing with the japs... well, my jap definitely wasnt pro enough to have veri long or complicated conversations with the local japanese pple... but i guess i cld still manage some simple phrases or sentences...so it was still a pretty gd practice in that sense...

oh yeah, i actualli met up wif my fren in nagoya! haha... we were supposed to meet at the hotel on a particular nite, but we coincidentally met at dis huge underground shopping mall earlier in the evening... haha... if onli i can save up enuf to go japan again, & perhaps i cld stay wif her for a short while in nagoya & save on de hotel lodging... =P

anw, 3rd jan is fine wif me...i've got nth planned yet... so shall keep that day free... =)

2005-12-22T12:47:00.000+08:00

surprise babys im blogging here for the first time in 27 years
well most of the class (actually no, only got 11 or 13 ppl i think) is on the cruise now, so less ppl to find to go out. and celest is spending like 10 SING dollars for a lunch now, so oso cannot find her.

but we can still go out rite.. and im glad to say that my money is coming back...haha inflow of currency sias. altho juz now somebody from Adecco agency call me say the date on which i start work has been pushed back. sian la i want to work they dont let me work. i need money. and i was at first hoping to work on christmas to get the 13 bucks per hour pay. but no more. unlucky to the max.

anw Christmas wad u all doing? i think m gg to stay home and watch all the lame shit tv shows. like home alone.

anw abt khs blog. nt much leh. fren then fren loh. you decide who you want to befren. you will always get to know both types of frens, and of course frens who can do both are the best. thats all. haha or maybe im just not in the GP mood.

2005-12-17T20:44:00.000+08:00

hmm, i haven't really been blogging much recently. but since everybody blogged, i shall write some shits in here too. haha
ns is coming soon. damn weird feeling, before exams, i was dying to get in, probably hoping to run away from exams and the outside world, now i don't wanna go it! BAH! silly shits.
hmm, yup, celest, it was a pretty fun day yesterday.. but i still wanna try the clothes peg and it's not fun lor! only me and chin hoe dare to really flick each other ears. haha. i still don't dare to really "tiak" u all very hard, i very scared later u all cry or get angry whatsoever.
AND I REALLY DO THINK U CHEATED FOR MONOPOLY. i bet u arranged the cards so u get the "advance to mayfair" one.
AND SCRABBLE ALSO CHEAT! i bet u say u check dictionary for that word, den u see another ultra good word den u nv say den use it. RITE?! HAHAHA
haha, ok, we shall have another gathering. i'm always free. haha. actually, i really don't mind going kbox again. haha
eh, so is it gonna be 6th may or 5th jun? it really depends, are we chinese ppl or english ppl?
chinese den would be 5th jun, english den 6th may. haha
or we can just have both lar. damn it. :P
and celest, we are so not gonna send u off lar. not like u're not coming back. and it's only 7 days. my goodness. are u mad. want us to send u off. but of course, i don't mind going to airport to play, nothing much to play also but can go and eat fish and co. haha.

well, kiet.. haha. ur post is so.. sentimental? nostalgic? i dunno. we seem to keep doing such stuff. but well, thanks alot to 65. haha. made my jc life fun. although everybody hated me and saw me as anti-social. haha. i'm really not. i'm just shy. :D

hmm, i just went running. i'm not fat. i'm a piece of fat. haha.
i think i wasn't exactly running, more of like sliding like a slime across the tarmac road.. damn slow. i thought i was doing fine till i saw a snail overtake me. my goodness.
luckily, the snail got complacent and took a rest, den the rest of the race was downhill, so i just slide down really fast and won the race!
*doesn't that sound really familiar?*

ok lar, completed 5.7km. i'm fat.

scooting off to japan... whee!!! =P

2005-12-17T11:17:00.000+08:00

hey, i'm leaving for japan tmr... so excited! haha... hope it wun be so cold dat i cant enjoy myself thoroughly... anw, it was pretty fun yest... us playing cards, monopoly, scrabble, listening to songs, etc... haha... simple but fun stuff wif great company... =P a pity dat sam cldnt join us... hope he's feeling better now... nvm, we shall haf another gathering b4 chin & jun enter ns... perhaps we cld hold it at sam's hse nxt! ^_^

oh yah, rmb how we were talking abt setting a date for our annual class reunion? 5 jun or 6 may? de guyz haf ns for nxt 2 yrs, so dey'll onli be able to meet on wkends... so perhaps we cld set it on de sunday of dat wk... =)

hm... in case anyone of u asks me again... i'm leaving on sunday nite, checking in at 2125, departure at 2325... come on down to send me off if u wish... haha... & i'll be back on 24 dec, 1745... come & receive me if u wish... haha... for further details, pls contact my spokesperson... loy kiet mei... i'm sure she'll be kind enuf to answer any of ur queries... haha...

2005-12-12T10:30:00.000+08:00

ok lah ill try my bestest to not let this blog die...cept that haha im very lazy and my literary skills are only as good as this..so its very hard for my to like express myself through words..i think its better for u guys to watch my expressions and tones...haha im very fierce and sarcastic one...like u guys dont already know...but yeah...ill try to blog!!i promise...=P

anyways, i was sorting out my prom pictures and man do i look awful...but that's not really the point...i guess its really the memories that we bring with us as we leave hwa chong and 04s65..i know i had a preetty sentimental post earlier about the class too..but looking at the pics really made me want to get mushy on the blog..haha aiyah u noe what i mean lah..yepyep...so ill like to dedicate this post to the wonderful and funky class of 04s65..

hey guys!!!i dont know if everyone will get to read this post but i just wanted to let each of u know that i really really treasure the moments that we have shared with one another...it has been a great two years for me and i hope it has been for u too..honestly i had my reservations at the beginning and i didnt know if ill ever find friends like i had in mg..and yeah with all my friends in ac and all..it was quite hard..but you pple really made it easy for me..i probably wouldnt be as happy...and i cant imagine myself in another class...though our class is like kinda separated into different cliques like there's us and nip and gang and the lit pple...yeah..but somehow i always knew that all of us are united in a way..such an irony..but yeah that is really special...i think im starting to spout nonsense...coz right i ate chocolates in the morning so im like HIGH!!!WOOHOO...yeah so right i must thank every every every single one of u in 04s65 for just being part of my life and making a difference in this little insignificant life of mine..

celest: yo girl...thanks for being my gal pal for these two years..i dont know what ill do without u leh...haha and i know your secrets...and you know i know ur secrets...oh but u know my secrets too..and i know you know my secrets...im mad...but yeah that's the thing about our friendship..nothing's relevant or sane about us..which us what made it so darn fun...haha...thanks for just being my friend and as your friend too, im advising you to seriously consider a career in zoology or something...go study about seals lah...got future one k...=)

yongjun: you're one melancholic guy you know..but u never show it in front of us..which is good...haha...my dad saw u in my prom pics and said u look like a girl..haha...dont take it to heart k..coz u are shuai..u also another one..quite sarcastic..can match my standards...heh...but too sarcastic not good leh..no one will believe you when u are being sincere noe...take it from the expert k...yeah...and for the last time...im not rich, smart or pretty and i dont sing like sun yanzi...aiyo dont insult sun yanzi like that kan...she was my idol leh...

chin: hello dude! think i got to know you quite early in the year as compared to the rest..haha but lets just not talk about the reason why lah yeah..yep..think you're a really really nice friend..that's why always get bullied one..yeah thanks for being my friend k!!though im so fierce..dont get any skinnier k..or you'll disappear...but you're still skinnier than yonjun..heh sorry yong jun..kk..take are of yourself and take care of lijing...hope you all will be happy forever!!i want to go for your wedding one k...so right...you must know my address k...next time must remember to get from me so you can send me your invitation k...

samuel: hi funny guy! thanks for never failing to make me laugh..oh but sometimes your jokes are like...well...erm..a bit unfunny...haha we still end up laughing coz it's you...haha thanks thanks..though i dont really know you, it's been an honour for me to be in the quintet with you..and i seriously didnt know you thought of me as a typical act lan mg girl...but thanks..i guess?haha hope that opinion has changed?!im actually quite nice right..haha cocks...yeah thank you!

kaihong: erm i dont really have much to say to you cept take care of germaine k!!ill kill you if you hurt her..hah..but i know you wont lahz...you guys so lovey dovey...oh yeah..it may be good to try and improve on your jokes..but not bad lah..you never minded being the butt of the joke..that's real nice of you..haha..hope you really didnt mind...thanks for being such a great friend..=)

tag: tag tag...i still remember i didnt have a good impression of you at the beginning but im glad i got to know you better as a friend..i really cherish this friendship..dont brood over the past k..we should all be forward-looking yeah..everything will turn out fine..yeah..thanks for being a good friend..and yeah..take good care of yourself k?

hongyi: you know right..coz i never really knew you, i always thought you were the quiet sort..haha but boy was i surprised to find out you were capable of crap too..haha...real glad to know that side of you..and your quirks are real funny you know...haha..continue to shine in your own way yeah?

shan shan: you probably wont read this..but i must thank you for the guidance you have given me these two years..you've never failed to give me useful advice..and you're so smart!!!haha..yep..i really hope to see you soon...and all the best k..=)

adeline: you were pretty quiet at first..but when i got to know you better..you joined me to bully celest!!thanks man..really needed the help coz that girl is so capable of violence and im a bit scared of her..haha..dont know what ill do without you...!take care

ngee poo: hello nip..might wana consider changing that nickname of yours...it's not exactly very pleasant to the ears..haha..but yeah...though you always point the fake third finger at me and i sincerely think you're not that straight..i think you are a really good friend..and thanks for letting me make fun of you and not getting angry yeah..haha..but really i hope you grow a bit in army..it'll do you good

to the rest of the class: im sorry i cant give you guys a personal message each..coz im running out of fuel and adjectives..gonna start repeating everything i say to everyone...yeah so many big thank you to all of you..it's been a pleasure for me to be in this class and i hope you guys wont forget me!!=)

2005-12-12T09:09:00.000+08:00

yeah...dun let this blog die leh... everyone shud juz blog every now & den, no matter how short de post is... anw, prom's finally over... de prom dat was equivalent to burning $ to so many pple... well, i hope prom marked a proper end to our jc life... time flies lah... to think so many pple were fussing over wat to wear, how to make-up, how to style their hair etc... & after one nite, all we haf left are photos to reminisce that special occasion...

hmm, so wat r u guyz gonna do for de rest of de hols? kiet said she might be going abroad after all...but her travel plans are not confirmed... i suppose yongjun will be slacking ard since he doesnt haf much time left to do so anw. as for chin & sam, r u guyz gonna get a job? haha... can earn some extra $ to spend leh...instead of bumming ard... den if u guyz r feeling rich enuf, can even gif kiet & i a treat or smth... =P

anw, i'm so looking forward to my trip to japan!!! hope it'll be fun leh...a little worried dat it'll be too much of a rush & i wldnt exactly be able to shop ard or immerse myself in the jap culture/environment... hmm, hafta revise a bit of my jap & hope dat dey'll come in handy... i even taught my parents some simple jap juz for fun... haha...

2005-12-07T16:44:00.000+08:00

heys
dun let this blog die please guys..
blog k...
haha, was kinda lazy to blog also but then nothing to much to do... realised i'm quite no life. shits.
well, i really wonder how come some people have so many friends, so many outings and stuff that they have like appointments for 2 weeks in advance one...
i'm just stoning around day to day, being a couch potato, so much so that when the boutique lady called me to inform me that i can pick up my suit already, i could like leave the house nearly immediately to collect it. i have practically NOTHING to do, yet there are those popular people who have to accomodate and "zhao dai" all their friends that they're so busy. am i weird? like how unpopular lar. sadness.
anyway, prom is stupid. haha. my initial smart casual idea got killed by so many ppl. everybody was so against the jeans and i had no choice but to get the cheapest suit i could find. haha. shall pay my mum back the money in future. and i really wonder what i'm gonna do at prom, i'm so unpopular, i might just stone there again. so silly lar, spend $300 (including ticket) to stone. might as well stone at home, infront of the tv, might have something nice to watch some more. maybe everybody just wants a nice happy ending. i'm so scared i'll feel left out at prom, den maybe i'll just call my brother out and force him to keep me company somewhere in town. haha. thank god for my nice brother.
anyway, chin hoe, i'm not depressed. haha. at least i'm not supposed to be.
i'm just writing some stuff into this blog. that's all. it's just some emotions and thoughts that i have that i think no one will really understand but i guess life's just like that. no one's gonna understand u at all. people all use their own criteria and ruler to measure someone but not themselves.
two scariest words in my life at this moment, PROM and REGRETS.

i'm back too!

2005-11-30T10:02:00.000+08:00

heyz... hvent been able to blog for a long time coz my darn com crashed... of all times, it had to crash in de middle of As, such dat i cldnt go online for de last few papers & had to suffer from withdrawal symptoms... worse still, i cldnt go online even AFTER the As... so desperate as i was, i trotted back to sch to use de com in de library! haha... those few days when i was back, the library was freaking empty...coz most pple wld have finished their As, while those taking S papers were taking their exams in the morning...

anw, my life after As hasnt been far too sian...i've been doing lotza stuff that i hvent been able to do very much of before or during the As...training for eg... went back to sch quite a couple of times rite after the As to train with some juniors... den had a performance at jurong west cc on 20 nov... it was quite rushing for me coz i didnt realli train much for dat performance. but i guess everything went pretty smoothly that day...i did my black belt pattern & a backhook for plank destruction... luckily de plank broke, so i din malu myself... =P

yest after going out, we had combined training wif temasek poly... the only j2s present were bernard, desmond, eugene & i... the rest were all j1s... well, the training wasnt as tough as i had expected... they had a few very good fighters, like this guy from safsa and some other black belters... but the rest were quite average... oh, there was this very tall girl, abt 1.8m or so...who was damn fierce! haha... she shout until damn loud & she looked damn intimidating when sparring wif dis guy who was shorter than her... i was quite impressed with the way she looked so fearless & aggressive... i definitely wldnt wanna spar with her... haha...

oh, another thing that many pple are pretty caught up with wld be shopping for prom stuff... i guess quite a lot of pple still hvent finished getting their stuff for prom... but kiet's probably the suay-est... As ended the latest, yet cant really enjoy or go shopping coz she's still taking SAT on saturday... torturous.... but well, she's so chio that she'll look gd in anything! haha... =P

anw, i guess i was slightly disappointed that we wldnt be getting a room on de day of prom... i was thinking that prom wld end quite late, and we might go out to walk ard or juz haf fun after that...so by the time we're "done", it wld be so late that there might be limited forms of transport back home...probably only taxis, wch we hafta pay midnite surcharge summore... so in order to make the day of a prom a proper end to our jc life, we shud realli like party thru the nite & enjoy one another's company while we can still meet on such a rare occasion... after the guys go ns & the gals go uni, some perhaps even going overseas, i guess it wld be even more difficult for the class to meet up. too bad a lot of us cant make it for the cruise, otherwise i'm sure it wld be a memorable time spent with the class too...

ok, enough said this time round...realised itz a very long post...to compensate for my lack of blogging in the past weeks...

take care!

2005-11-28T12:03:00.000+08:00

haha..after a million yrs.i m back!!

hmm...act got noting much to blog about..yeah..other than going out n mapling..i got noting to do le..hmm..really is quite sian..mayb i shld work a few days..hmm..but oso v sian...mayb i shld study..haha..=)

hmm...dear yj is depressed again..hmm..u always say over then over le...but then u juz cannot forget it...then wads e use of keep blogging e same stuff...hmm..she's not e only female left in e world oso ma...got cleaner auntie 1 2 3 4 5.....got so many more...if dun like female can go for male oso de ma..we v open de...hmm..juz hang out w ur frens lor...then gradually u will forget her de..yup..hmm...act oso dunno can say wad..sian...play hard guys..

2005-11-22T12:59:00.000+08:00

blog blog blog blog.
i wonder if this blog will continue to live or will it just die.
this world sucks. and i am feeling miserable and upset.
i am an idiot.
argh. well, at least it goes to show that i do not suffer from depression cos patients suffering from depression fail to admit that they are upset and only suppress their emotions further and in result lead to psychotic disorders and rarely death.
anyway, i watched exorcism of emily rose.
to be honest, it's not THAT scary lar. as in, based on the exciting trailers, it's pretty CHEAT MONEY. but if u nv watch trailer, it's ok lar. watchable and probably worth it if u watch on a weekday. but dun spend $9.50 on it. i rather u take that money, walk into pastamania and order a bacon aglio and a coke. more satisfying.
anyway, life sucks lar. those who are in love. i am jealous. HAHA.
i realised that at the end of the day, i am still in love with the special someone and not other pretty faces. too bad it's too late. haha. oh wells, in my previous entry, i asked the last question. my answer to that question is both. haha. i may be sad but i am happy for her. haha. but then she says that she does not like anyone else. but i perceive that as a lie. haha. dun ask me why. i'm a pessimist. but even if she doesn't like anyone else, doesn't mean she still likes me. i'm the weird one. i will stop harboring lame silly hopes and i will move on and take things in my stride as i advocate. haha. good luck to all in their asS paper and i hope u all will miss me when i'm gone in bangkok. if i feel that i'm missed, i'll buy back stuff. haha. sorry last year i din buy back stuff cos my mother wasn't as open to spending, unlike this year. haha. i have already lion big open mouth and ask for more money and i am going to splurge like mad. retail therapy, that's what they call it.
i'll be back in singapore as a happy boy with lotsa new stuff. den i'll enjoy my NS in pasir ris camp. den when i come out, i will be fit and slim once again. no more fat little boy. i hate myself.

2005-11-22T12:24:00.000+08:00

many things in life cannot be reversed. or rather, just time cannot be reversed.
many people live a life of regret because of certain decisions, certain actions and these actions have dire consequences.. and by the term consequences, it means that these repercussions are negative and bad.
i regret doing many things in my life.
it may seem like a relatively short time compared to probably till the time of my death, but 18 years is long enough for me to do many things that i can regret till i'm 81 perhaps.
what can we do about something that we regret doing or saying? of cos, some things can be amended. but mostly, these things that leave a deep impression and regret in us are probably things that cannot be amended, things that cannot be changed or corrected in one way or another, we can do nothing but to accept it and learn from our mistakes, hoping not to make the same silly shits again.
but more often than not, people would commit the same crime more than once. for example, spilling ur heart to the wrong person. i, for one, happen to have this serious problem. apparently, when i'm feeling down, i somehow lose the rational to choose the right person to confide in and when this happens, u'll just break down. in the process of confiding, u're actually removing the defensive mechanism that everyone possesses as we age. this defensive mechanism can differ from individual to individual. some people hide in books, some people hide behind a cheerful smile, or a self-created outgoing extrovert character but in fact, he feels uncomfortable being under the spotlight. (i think i'm going to hide in camp. haha. the outside world is complicated.)
why do people want to create a certain image of themselves? i guess the most valid answer would be peer pressure. on the surface, there are some people who are "more cool" than others. and people want to be the "popular" group. people want the attention. this is a trait of all humans, as seen from babies crying incessantly just to attract the attention of adults. peer pressure is something very scary. it can change individuals in drastic ways u would never have thought of. it can make individuals start changing their tastes and preferences, changing their lifestyles and many other things just to be able to fit into the popular social image, just like a substrate and an enzyme. these people then lose their self-identities and their focus and goals of life. someday, when they realise it, they'll be lost in thoughts, lost in the complexity, wondering where to go from here and end up drifting aimlessly in life. on the other hand, people do not realise that actually the "cool" group aren't as cool as they seem. these people, or rather adolescences in this case as i'm probably dealing more of people in school, have their weak and sensitive sides too. these people feel low and down too. but anyway, this whole chunk is out of point. haha. cos what i really wanna say is more of the regret thingy.
well, i finally understood the meaning of cherish what u have now. the only way to be happy is to be contented and satisfied. it doesn't mean we have to be easily contented and satisfied, we have to constantly push ourselves, our limits to attain higher goals but the thing is that we must learn to take things in our stride. to have self confidence, to be able to face setbacks and face the music of our actions. we must learn to stand tall and proud of ourselves with our chins up, cos it's easier to see heaven that way. :)
but the thing is, cherish what u have when u can. we've seen enough tv dramas of children being unfillial to their parents when they were alive but only turnin over a new leaf and regretting not being fillial to their parents while they could. same thing applies to your loved ones.
it's probably going to be a tough time for many couples now as NS draws near. guys probably start feeling insecure and wahtever not. but well, my word of advice is, even if she falls in love with someone else, u shouldn't be too upset. i guess falling in and out of love are just passing phases of life that everyone has to go through, it's hard for someone to just fall in love and get married and live happily ever after, kinda sad that we do not live in a fairytale world. the thing is, it's kinda unfair to her esp since u're in camp 5/7 of a week, and the 2 days u're free, u have to do ur laundry, SLEEP, rest, and maybe settle some impt stuff every now and then. so technically, practically, u probably only spend 1 day with her and den u have to book in again. of cos, we've seen miracles of long distance relationships and couples lasting through NS, but it's not gonna be easy. this world is filled with temptations. let's face it, NUS, NTU probably have their fare share of smart, intellectual good looking guys who can sweep a girl off her feet with a grin and some witty pick up line. i'm not trying to degrade girls by saying that they're loose sluts or whatsoever, but it's true. girls are more sensitive than men and they need someone at their sides to pamper them and to give them the attention they need. apparently, girls strive on attention. the science definition that man requires water and food and air to survive is incomplete as it lacks "attention". there's nothing much u can do, the most is probably sms, talk on the phone every nite, but sometimes when u just return to camp from a mission, after getting all dirty crawling in mud, after a shower, u just wanna slump into the bed and get a good rest. then, the girl feels neglected. then a crack appears and some persistent and devoted guy out there will slowly chip at this nook and poof! there she goes. my point is. haha, after a big round, guys, please do cherish ur girls now, take really good care of them, take them out more often during this hols, during ur free time, pamper them, shower them with lotsa love and enjoy and cherish every moment spent together. same thing applies to girls, dun take ur guy for granted, treat them well, be nice to them. it's not easy being a guy. personally, i find it damn hard to be an alpha-male, i'm probably more of a beta-boy, constantly in touch with my sensitivity, which is quite bad to my mental state, easily getting upset. haha. but guys should be proud of themselves, always being able to put on a strong front and hide all their fears under their pillows. who says guys should never cry. when u see a guy cry, u should know that this guy is a good guy. haha. at least, he's brave enough to show the world his true innerself, his weaker side and he's confident enough of his masculinity to portray the new image of a sensitive guy. perhaps, the saying of it's better to love and lost than to not love at all is true. at least these times will be beautiful memories u carry to ur death bed. perhaps the name "clara tan" will resonant in my heart even till i'm 81.
this blog entry is probably quite crappy but i have nothing to do now. haha. what to do when u're upset? haha. the answer is blog and so here i am.
anyway, love is such an abstract topic that i think we're not gonna start another one of our stupid blogging debates. sucks lar. haha.
one question though, let's say the one u love now loves someone else, would u be sad? happy for her? both?

2005-11-05T19:02:00.000+08:00

gd...my turn to blog...

anw, yongjun, as if i took notes lah...i onli wrote down de pg nos for de 2 cheem qns dat mrs lee went thru... coz de dumb me completely caught no ball while de smarty-fart u managed to understand everything so quickly! she was juz explaining de whole qn at a bullet-train speed & i cldnt catch up at all... i wanted to ask her to clarify some stuff initially, but didnt dare to do so in de end, coz i saw u wif dat confident look on ur face, obviously having no problems understanding wat was happening... *sigh*

oh yah, i guess everyone's been mugging real hard... so haf i!!! hahahaha... ask me wat i've done & i'm sure u'll feel more confident abt urself... hahaha... except for yongjun of coz, who seems to haf done less than me... *grinz*

on countless occasions when i juz had to throw de notes aside & stone for a few moments, i actually drew up a list of things i wanna do after As! hahaha... so happy... anw, everything seems so near yet so far... de beginning of As is so so near, yet de end of it is so so far, when itz actually a mere 2 wks... (at least for me & some others...) veri sorry to de pple taking lit or de zai s paper students, (esp de super smart 4 As, 2 Ds kiet)... dun take it too hard, i'm sure u guyz can afford to take a short & well-deserved break on the 18th too... =P

oh yah, another thing...abt prom rite...u all interested in booking a hotel room or not ah? we can kai1 a few fang2 & party thru de nite... hahaha... doesnt hafta be at ritz, can be at any other hotels nearby too... if de rest of de class isnt interested, maybe de few of us can juz share a rm or smth... i'm sure it'll be fun! juz play cards, mahjong, chat, tell horror stories, etc etc...

2005-11-04T21:01:00.000+08:00

hey hey!
in an attempt to keep this blog of ours going, i'm going to once again do another of my narcissistic exhibition. haha
well, this morning, i woke up and somehow, i remembered that i forgot where i placed my prom ticket.
for a moment, i was glad i lost it, somehow, i din wanna go for prom.. think i might feel out of place or something. dunno why. weird.
but abracadabra, i found it among my stack of notes.. so i guess i'll go down to bangkok and see if i can find anything nice to wear to prom. and freaking hell, why can't i wear my jeans.. i just wanna do the smart casual thingy.. jeans, shirt, blazer.. why not.. why muz suit.. damn it. not like i need to impress any girl or anything. this school has no girl that would ever like me.

enough of that. well, A levels are round the corner. in fact, the corner's pretty short. haha. 3 days. guys, dun stress urselves out k.. we're 04s65. we're smart ppl.. i'm pretty sure 80% of us would come out with at least 3 As. and ppl like kiet would have 4. haha. smart girl. hardworking girl. i refuse to mention shan jie's name as it is a forgone conclusion that she would have 4As, 2Ds, A1 for GP.
anyway, i am so grateful to tutors like Mrs Lee and Miss Lim.. haha.. they make me feel abit more confident about the exam.. Mrs Lee went through certain things that we probably might have left out today.. and i think i learnt quite a bit just from listening.. haha. not like celestine who took notes. clearly on her way to 4As too... and Miss Lim, haha, apparently, she has confidence in my GP and thinks that i would do fine. haha. perhaps she has low expectations of me.. like maybe just a B4.. haha.. but then again, the other day during consult, she said," you will get your A1 if you're in your mood. some days you just dun want to write and u give me crap." hahaha.. i really do hope i'll be in my writing mood and wow those british people. HOPE. hahaha

anyway, i decided to write a little story for the reading of everybody! hahah.. this story is purely fictional and any similarities to reality would be coincidental.

they sat across the void deck. they were approximately 15 metres apart. it would take an able man 2 secs to run that distance and maybe at most 10 seconds to crawl that distance. they were this close. so close. yet so far.
in his eyes, she was beautiful. pretty, cute, near perfect. she always was. he wasn't sure if he wanted her to notice him looking at her. he rested his head on the table, his bag partially covering his face, but the height was just nice for his eyes to peer over.
she was with another guy, smiling and laughing, clearly having a nice time. her smile was radiant and warm. something he missed so dearly.
he felt a surge of emotions running through him...
regrets? he wasn't too sure. she was always a popular figure with the opposite sex and he had his insecurities. he couldn't deal with these insecurities, always fearing the worst. it's a fine line between being realistic and pessimistic. that was one main reason why he wanted to give her up. he felt miserable always worrying over this and that and she couldn't seem to make her feelings clear. perhaps, that's a problem of being popular. something he would never feel or understand.
jealous? he wasn't supposed to be. he was the one who gave her up. but deep inside his heart, he knew that he still liked her very much, love would probably be too strong a word to use. he liked her very much. but the situation was not what he wanted. he wanted to move on.
happy? to a minute extent. he was happy that she had found someone else to spend the lonely afternoons. someone to study with, when the boredom and drudgery of the books took its toil on her. someone to confide in or talk to, when the empty house and four walls could not reply her except echoing her every words. he was happy that she had moved on fast and was now on her way to finding her true happiness, a guy who could give her love and freedom simultaneously.

at that moment, he decided. no matter how much he love her, he would not ask for her to come back to him for he was the one who had betrayed her first. he was the one who had decided to give her up and now, he was not going to be an obstacle on her journey to true happiness.

haha. what a lousy story. but well. u can infer some stuff. perhaps i'm not cut out to be a writer.
if some editor reads this and wants it to be in some short story book. CONTACT ME. haha.
the title of the book could be "immature love".

ok, time to go. my mum's nagging again. i wonder who would know i blogged. hahaha. perhaps after As?

chalet!!! ^_^

2005-09-29T22:43:00.000+08:00

heyz! gd news... confirm got de chalet liao... 17-19 oct! itz 3d2n at downtown east...de one-room kind wif bbq pit. it has 2 beds & 2 pull-out beds... i think we shud ask de class whether dey wanna haf class bbq on de 2nd nite, wch is on de nite of 18th even though itz quite impossible for there to be room for everyone to stay over. but perhaps we cld squeeze a little for that nite since not everyone will be able to or will want to stay over anyway. well, if we're gonna stay up de entire nite, i guess we wldnt need to haf de space to sleep either... =P oh yah, alternatively...some pple cld stay over at the hse of those who live ard pasir ris...

haha... i guess it'll actually be quite close to the a levels...only a few wks away, but i think we can still spare the time rite? perhaps try to pia before & after the chalet lor...& take de chalet as a chance for us to give our mind & body a break to avoid burn-out...

yep, looking forward to de chalet... ^_^

2005-09-26T23:02:00.000+08:00

ah!!!prelims are finally finally over...those were the longest two weeks in my life i tell u...u really need stamina for the long two weeks and especially for the stupid two three-hour papers i sat for today...ohh and i went to toilet for both of them u noe...coz i really couldnt hold my pee..haha...actually i really have nothing to say...just that no one is blogging so im blogging..and i seldom blog..so there..=)

2005-09-19T13:30:00.000+08:00

heyz...i dun mind watching movie or makan-ing on thurs! haha... cant wait for physics paper to end... hope kiet can join us, but she's meeting her other frenz instead... well, hope we can do smth fun on thurs... must go & take a self-proclaimed well-deserved break... haha... ok, all de best for de 2 remaining papers! ^_^

ntybkte

2005-09-19T12:49:00.000+08:00

break the monotony... come on ppl discuss on what to do on Thursday
i want watch Nightwatch. Can eat restaurant stuff but cannot too ex cos i saving for tee and shoes. maybe go someone's house?

2005-09-01T21:58:00.000+08:00

EH! blog ppl. haha
whatever, i shall be determined to keep this blog going. and we should all continue bloggin even after we graduate so that we'll have a more interesting blog in future! like have 5 different people writing about 5 different lifestyles!

well, i'm watching superstar now.. and seriously, it's either i'm biased. or i really think that weilian isn't good enough to be there.
jj lin jun jie is clearly a REAL superstar. haha. his singing and everything is like THRASH everybody else. hahaha...
kelly and jj sang damn nice tog!!!
then jun yang and xin hui are seriously pro.. their wu ding is damn nice...
well, seeing all the old contestants. i still like them better than weilian. hahah
people like derrick, leon, william, chanel, that skinny small girl from hongkong or china, candyce too!
sigh. all gone. all lost to weilian. sadly, there can only be one winner. but i do hope they all can like come up with some pro compilation album.. and ppl like junyang/derrick/etc those i like can have their own albums. haha. i will buy. haha.

ok i'm adding on more to the entry. haha

weilian is seriously not meant to be a superstar. NO STAGE PRESENCE.
not like the rest...
seriously...
wah.. i like the others more... haha
xin hui and candyce now so chio!
junyang and derrick so pro. sigh. all lose to a blind man. BAH.

2005-08-26T20:48:00.000+08:00

haha.
well, just read sam's blog..
what a shout out, full of "cheebyes" hahaha... well, it appears that it is as multi-functional as the f word.. can be used to describe anything, everything.
well, i've done a couple of shout outs myself last time, and decided not to do something like that...
cos it's kinda boring and repetitive for everybody to say the same lame (rhyme) stuff again and again...
but well, it's pretty stupid to say that 65 is the best class, cos other ppl would think their classes are the best. but well, i think they're just dumb. LOL. haha
clearly, 65 is the best class, ok, maybe not academically, but somehow, we manage to scrape through block test after block test, ok maybe only me. but what the hell...we're a pretty weird class.. at least we do fun stuff and are WAY ahead of other classes in sch. haha. it's like during lects, i see other class doing childish stuff, den i realise that actually we did that some time ago, but we din think it was childish. but it LOOKED REALLY MORE CHILDISH cos they're copying us. hahahaha.. ego boosting session here...
well, thanks to those who think i'm good looking. hahaha. prom king is just a title, deep down in all ur hearts, u know i'm good looking. LOL. haha. ok. sorry, just kidding. dun lub me when u see me next time.

2005-08-23T14:21:00.000+08:00

haha..now at com lab doing survey..damn sian..anyway..bout e superstar ting..hai yah..its over le..all i got to say is that weilian shldnt deserve e top place..he cannot perform..he cannot sing..he cannot dance..he cannot b a superstar...n wads e most impt is that he feels that he shld still deserve it...because he feels that e ppl wld not tong qing him for so long...well..obviously he is wrong..cos i m v sure that jun yang can perform much better than him..hmm...well...its settled..n i really hope that he wld not win..n kelly shld get b e eventual superstar..well...prelims coming le..everyone mug hard..hah..i m starting my engine le..hope it is still useful..=)...mug hard..take care...

2005-08-21T01:24:00.000+08:00

woah..
it's been such a long time since i've blogged..
was trying to blog this afternoon..
went to my aunt's house and discovered that my cousin got a new ibook g4.
damn jealous. it's damn nice
den i went online to check the price.. supposedly she got it at a cheaper price thru nus..
but then.. realised she din get it much cheaper.. and it's pretty cheap now.. 1.8k and u get a free ipod mini.. sounds like a damn good deal.. damn it...

well.. now to talk about superstar..
to those people who say "dun discriminate the hadicapped/blind," DUN BE LAME.
i could have been mroe vulgar, but decided not to be, since this could probably one sensitive topic.
first and foremost, before we even talk about whether weilian is a good singer or not...
let's just go down to the basics..
what defines a superstar... is ocean ou de yang a superstar?
i do not think so. a good singer isn't a superstar. a superstar is one that is charming and has a certain aura on stage. a good entertainer, a performer. can weilian do all that? maybe he can sing, but precisely because of his handicap, he cannot dance and do many gimmicks, stunts and special performances that superstars can.. people like jay chou, wang lee hom, etc etc.. like their concerts they always have something special.. and weilian cannot do all that...
we'll see on the finals.. he'll be performing in a new environment.. i wonder if he can make it..
den u'll see the difference between a real superstar..

well, if u persistently think that weilian should be given the chance. den fine. den what is wrong with the singaporean audience. WHAT THE HELL?
are u all mad to think that weilian is better than jun yang?!?!?!
are u all mad to think that weilian is better than derrick?!?!?!
are u all mad to think that weilian is better than leon??!?!?!
are u all mad to think that weilian is better than weichong??!?!?!?
are u all mad to think that weilian is better than william?!?!?!?
i dun understand.. his performances are rather average if not mediocre compared to the other guys.. i think he just lacks the stage presence and aura and his singing techniques aren't as good as the rest!

well, i just think that right from the start, he shouldn't be there, but week in week out, he has killed so many pros.. we shall see...

japan rox!

2005-08-11T19:58:00.000+08:00

oh yeah! forgot to tell u all smth... i'm going japan after a levels!!! *yay* damn happy... nippon rox... hahaha... anw, i booked my tour last saturday... going central japan for a 7-day tour, & will be visiting tokyo, osaka & nagoya... i'm so looking forward to it! haha... must take lotza photos when i go there...esp at disneyland/disneysea, universal studios, hot spring hotel, etc... oh, too bad my bro's not joining us coz he might be having some work attachment in dec... well, i cant wait to get the a levels over & done with...den off i fly to japan!!! hehehehe... ^_^

2005-08-09T21:25:00.000+08:00

huh? y didnt expect me to blog? i blogged juz before u & kiet wat... anw, i had a veri veri full dinner tonite!! damn zai... haha... we didnt go kuishin bo in de end...coz my mom sorta prefers chinese food... so we went tung lok teahouse at china square & tried de ala carte buffet...de food was superb! haha... got a wide variety of dishes... first, we had shark's fin, then there were appetisers like salmon sashimi, some cold dishes, etc. there were also many seafood dishes like herbal prawns, oatmeal prawns, chilli crabs, fried crabs, squid, cuttlefish, scallops, fried fish, steamed fish, sea cucumber & mushrooms... meat/poultry dishes like spring chicken, peking duck, sea cucumber & duck, frog legs, ostrich meat... there were also soups like abalone soup, hot & sour szechuan soup... & there were lotza nice dim sum like har kow, char siew buns, chicken claws, siew mai, etc... oh, not forgetting de desserts like gui ling gao, mango pudding, red bean soup, ching teng & tang yuan! haha... i realli recommend u guyz to try dis buffet with ur family someday... itz quite cheap... $28+++ per person (w/ 1 serving of shark's fin), otherwise itz onli $26+++ per person...

oh yah, u noe wat... i successfully made yummy chawanmushi today! haha... it was my first attempt preparing & cooking everything by myself, & i was realli glad dat i succeeded! heheheh... ^_^ i helped my mom to prepare it previously, but she never realli succeeded coz de chawanmushi was bubbly & rough at de surface, & it looked & tasted more like the chinese steamed egg rather than de jap chawanmushi.. but today, i followed dis recipe dat i found online & experimented it myself... & i managed to get the chawanmushi nice & smooth!!! haha... felt so accomplished after that... perhaps if u guyz come by sometime, i could make some to let u all try! haha...

2005-08-09T21:15:00.000+08:00

woah. haha. i din expect celest to blog...
cos this blog has been stagnant for like ages..
i guess we should be flattered that xue ting still bothered to check it. hahaha
what a faithful fan we have.
well.. there's this song that i like alot recently and i decided to share it with everyone again!

here's the lyrics!

爱永远都是难题　失去分寸太容易　谁都是凡人　不夠小心翼翼
有时后忘了珍惜　伤害来的太无意　有时爱太急　需要空间呼吸
争吵愈狠痛愈深刻　然后不断自责　我们都忘了最初的快乐
拥抱越紧痛愈深刻　谁不会舍不得　现在我给的或许并不是你要的
如果分离是唯一的解脱　最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过　遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱　连未来也没有我　爱着你　仍是我的执着
让你哭泣对不起　为了爱承受委屈　说过的承诺　其实还没忘记
愈是在乎的关系　愈是相处不容易　伤害了你　我也失去勇气
争吵愈狠痛愈深刻　然后不断自责　我们都忘了最初的快乐
拥抱越紧痛愈深刻　谁不会舍不得　现在我给的或许并不是你要的
如果分离是唯一的解脱　最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过　遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱　连未来也没有我　爱着你　仍是我的执着
走到感情关键时候　卻握不住你的手　还能有　什么借口　让爱再回头
多少的爱说不出口　就让时间帮我说话　我一个人拼命挣扎
总比两个人一起难过还好吧
如果分离是唯一的解脱　最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过　遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱　连未来也没有我　爱着你　仍是我的执着
爱着你　唯一的解脱

wonder if u all can see it..
it's jie tou by nicky li jiu zhe..
u know the fat guy from machi? haha.. it's in his solo album. think some of u might have heard of it.. if not.. here's a link for the mp3!
and if u cannot see the lyrics.. u can click here to download the rich text file! so sorry no word in my new comp. haha. what a lousy computer. only good for dota. lame shit.

go listen! :D nice song. the lyrics are simple yet they make so much sense! nice nice.

happy national day (in advance)!

2005-08-08T19:14:00.000+08:00

heyz!

tmr's national day... singapore's 40 yrs old liao... quite old to be considered a young growing nation... but anw, wat did u all think of today's celebrations? i personally thought it was not bad...not as bad as i'd expected... i guess it was lucky that the rain stopped after a while, or else de chinese high uniform groups wld haf been realli disappointed coz i guess they must've trained for quite some time in preparation for the parade & everything... glad that the parade & everything went on pretty well...

oh yah, rmb de lego building block video clip dat we watched in de hall? i thot it was a rather creative idea... filming de build-up of the lego blocks... i thot de guess-the-song quiz was also quite funny... there were those daring & to a certain extent, attention-seeking pple who made it look like it was a kbox session in front of the school population! haha... quite a good laugh...

oh yah, haf any of u guyz tried de kuishin bo buffet at suntec? think i'm going there wif my family dis wed to celebrate my mom's bday... $31.80+ per pax... heard itz not bad... will let u guyz noe de standard after i try it for myself! hehe...

btw, in case u guyz r craving for dim sum buffet... i heard dat yum cha's hving a promotion on weekdays... $9.80+++ from 8-11:30am if i'm not wrong... yep, so maybe u all could gif it a try if u're interested... okie, datz all for now... haf a happy national day holiday!!! ^_^